silver lining

2012-02-27T08:51:00.000-08:00

Realised I actually suffered 5 of the largest blows ever to my self-esteem within the last 2+ months but I managed to get back up every time.

Now I'm not sure if I'm delusional/missing something or this is a good thing.

:( how.
but every cloud is supposed to have a silver lining right?

SUMMERLOVIN'

2012-02-26T08:27:00.000-08:00

Sorry I disappeared from this space since the longest time ever!! Phone didn't rotate my pictures and my internet is being evil tonight so I will plop random photos from tumblr here to make up for the lack of pictures heheh.

This is going to be so boring unless you are a stalker and want to know every single detail of my life in the past two weeks.
Went to IKEA to eat dindinz with sister and ant on vday!! Sorry I have zero love life so no juicy story. Super love ikea meatballs I'm willing to eat them everyday for breakfast lunch dinner supper teatime brunch linner dupper. Bought a kids towel to show off during swim pe. IT HAS A HOOD!! and a parrot/monkey/parkey/monkrot.
Can't remember what happened the rest of the week. eh.......
SO LAST WEEK!!I shall not talk about what happened on monday oops. I did something very very bad :(
TUESDAY. First day of school with my class!! Thankful I got placed in to SC8 cos it's not full of nerds and muggers (quite the opposite actually). Tuesdays are long long days (while Thursday are long long long long days. I'll get to that). Met most of my teachers and I THINK I like most of them!! Ah well my grades are not based on my teachers alone. If someone sucks I just have to study harder :) Went for first CCA meeting too and to be honest wasn't very impressed but school is not just about CCA hehhehehehhhhhhhh. Anyways Tuesdays are long long days cos we end at 1550 which is really late for me :( HAHAHA. and I'm starting math tuition this week too so that makes Tuesdays even longer than Thursdays!! :( :(
Same old lectures and tutorials on Wednesday again but we were supposed to have xcountry. Was allowed to leave class early cos I signed up for competitive (HEHHEH). Bussed over to a bus stop that was supposedly near west coast park with Kaya and Wingyin and ended up walking a super long distance to ANOTHER bus stop and cabbing over to west coast park.and by the time we got there it was POURING. Dominated macs with another several hundred ACJppl cos we couldn't get shelter anywhere else and the tent was wayyy across the park. In the end the run was cancelled so.... .we have to run on thursday!!!!! >:( >:(
School ended at 1630 on Thursday. I think that's enough to explain why Thursdays are long long long long long days :(
and woohoo Friday!!!! Went back to Anderson after school with yiling the vj odac person who ran two rounds for xcountry and 10km in pulau ubin and gained some swag during her three weeks in vj. she so gangsta now. Had some problems getting into the school cos dearest principal did something to the school rules and we're not allowed to enter anymore. -___- but half-lied about going in to collect testimonial and stayed there for the next three hours lepaking around. Met other VJ/HC people too!! weeheeee. can't wait to go back for teachers day or speech day or whatever and see all the sec4'11 people!! ^^
Careteam/Chem tuition on Saturday. I had chem tuition on Friday night and there's one tomorrow night too!! Siao seriously this is chemistry overload but all my fault lah cos I keep ponning.
OMG OH YAH I FORGOT TO TALK ABOUT SUPER SHOW 4. ♥♥♥Quite funny.I was sleeping on the sofa when I got a call from sister telling me we got free tix to SS4 and screamed for 30 seconds straight while running up to mummy's room to make the grand announcement. Anyway haha.
I LOVED IT WHOO.I think I will just love Super Junior for the rest of my life lah. After all they are my first loves and they are the reason I got to know U-KISS and whoever else cos without them I might not even know kpop heh. They performed arnd 5 old songs!! Sister and I only high-ed during those songs cos being the greatest fan in the world I didn't even know their new songs HAHA. I'm so shameless.
Trying desperately to download Mr Simple album on this laopok computer but it doesn't seem to be working walaos :( :(I love ryeowook and henry. so kyutes. I think I need to rewatch EHB.
SO.School tomorrow and I'm still up. but at least i don't have to worry about cough wakinguplate cough.Shall leave the computer so it can download my album in peace. Plsplsplsplsplspslpslpls i'm so sick of the songs in my phone already hahaha.
CAN'T WAIT TO GET NEW NOTEBOOOOOOOK.
Ran 6km with the bro just now and I'm totally unfit after not exercising for 2weeks. MISSION 7KG LET'S GO.

do that thing you do

2012-02-03T22:13:00.000-08:00

So we have reached the end of orientation! Waving hello to endless lectures and tutorials for the next two years. Excited but not too excited to start studying again!!!

Ended orientation with campfire which also ended off with jumping around an unlit hall waving lightsticks around for half an hour or so. Probably the most tiring thing I've done in my life but woohooo what's fatigue when you're having fun. HAHAHAHA.

Still suffering from mild culture shock (surprisingly not from the j2s but my fellow j1s...) but meh I'll get over it. I will.

After yesterday I'm more determined than ever never to succumb to temptation to go clubbing etcetc. Not even gonna step into a single one even if all my friends do.

Brief summary of what we did yesterday!! House meeting (kinda) in the morning after assembly and got allocated to my house! >half of my og is in the same house so yayayyyyy. Played 5 games after that which is an amazing achievement considering we only played 2 games each in the past two days in the same amount of time. Only got a little bit wet though hahahaha. Went to eat after that but halfway through we had to go for mass rally/dance so me and kaya (DEB'S FRIEND) drank our pratas and rushed off to the bleachers feeling fuller than ever. Randomly danced around during couple dance cos till now I still don't know how to do it HAHAHA.
5 HOUR OG TIME after that!!
Played captain's ball and soccer (GRACE PLAYED SOCCER)(write it down) and a teeny bit of frisbee before heading over to holland v for dinner/random ice cream eating. The rest ate main courses while me and kaya shared a banana crumble while keeping ourselves entertained with the scenario game all of us have a love-hate relationship with.
Rushed back to school after that for campfire!!

Woke up this morning to four ulcers in a row at REGULAR INTERVALS ok. + they all look different!! Very shenqi but painful like siao. Can't even eat properly :( :(

Going out with steffy tmr to study (haha) and a bit of shopppppiing!!
woohoo k bye bye

cough

I know all of you jelly.

HIGHER OFF THE GROUND

2012-02-01T06:36:00.000-08:00

Super ultra thankful for everything that has happened in the past two days. Hours and hours of worrying turned out to be for nothing (fortunately).So....

Where I spent my last two days which resulted in a mouth full of ulcers. Super super grateful thankful relieved happy lucky blessed for my OGLs and OGmates. Was sosososo scared on the first day I was totally shivering when I walked into the school ;_;

Spent the last two days attending briefings/lectures followed by MASS DANCE (can't dance for all the nuts in the world), games and mass rallies woohoo. It's too soon to say I love the school (cos love is a strong word. I sound gay anot) but I LIKE it. I'm so tired now I don't even want to think before I type.

Anyways this is one of the times I feel that God is reallyreally working in my life and I feel so blessed :') Prayers answered, promises kept. Nothing more reassuring than God's own words wahoohoo!!

Another full tiring day tomorrow and then dinner with OG! Possibly.

Orientation has been making me miss guides (surprise, surprise) cos it's sososo similar to our campfire!! It's going to be worse on Friday when ac has their campfire but must THINK POSITIVE!! Friends come and go physically but they will never leave my heart. I am especially cheesy today omnomnom.

Ok gotta rest for tomorrow. I'm 3/4 asleep already.

Hope you all are enjoying your schools!!! but if you aren't don't worry :) You'll adapt soon. God always has a plan!! LUVYALUVYALUVYA.

Summer

2012-01-26T06:56:00.000-08:00

Summer - Joe Hisaishi
Been listening to this non-stop since I found it yesterday and I'm still not sick of it!! ♥♥♥ Was spamming Joe Hisaishi's pieces on my phone (due to lack of computer) last night which resulted in me sleeping at 3am and waking up at 7am this morning a very grumpy girl.

HAPPY BELATED CNY TO EVERYBOOODY!!! :)

i couldn't post here cos my computer was in the office over the long weekend :( and now I have lots and lots and lots to post about wheeeee.

Starting from last Thursday!

Got dragged out by the brother to go to Peninsula Plaza with Germaine and her friend to get their bass guitar which I am completely not interested in. We were too late and everything was closed so I (who else hehe) suggested we go and eat supper and hence we ended up in chompchomp. Brother met his friend too so it was just him and his friend, Germaine and her friend, and me and... my food ^~^

Strawberry tauhuay (!!!), sugarcane juice, oyster omelette (!!!!!!!!), bbq chickywings (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Went back home guitarless but with an extremely happy stomach ^^

Day after that was Friday!!! Another one of my Best Day Evers.
Went to work early early early (like, 0730) and worked without Rachel nonstop till around 130pm to meet Gladys to shopppp!!
Felt so happy surrounded by all the aitong kids at the bus stop laughing at Ms Angeline Tan trying to get them to get up the bus orderly. Nolstagia.... but the new principal made so many changes to the uniform!! I guess every new principal does that lah.

Walked around far east for a while and bought my new year clothes (I wasn't actually shopping for new year clothes but I ended up wearing what I bought for cny so yeah... bought my new year clothes) and two green belts. Bought the first one for $5 and saw another one selling at $3 and I HAD to get it. #logichuh

The only picture I took with the Gladys.

This is a picture of a picture that I just (like 3 minutes ago) took in order to make this space more interesting before even I stop reading it (my VERY OWN blog is one of my "top ten most visited websites". sad, I know :'()

Departed from mah galfwen and zoomed over to J8 to meet the 6A07!!!!!! ^^
I know you must be extremely sick of reading about them and how they are like the only people I ever met in the past two months but... yeayeayeah.

Ah yeah, cos a cup of water is such an uncommon sight. hmm?

Our (me, cher, evelyn, joey) turkey bacon pizza (or something) with CHEESYCRUSSSSTTTTTT ♥♥♥

(Sorry I know the effects for the food pictures a belly different compared to the rest bahaha)

Took a group photo at Pizza Hut before the teachers left! Ms Tan, Ms Tan (DOUBLE TAN) and Mrs Khoo came for this gathering!! First time seeing 2/3 of them since we graduated from aitong and they haven't changed. a. bit. Didn't manage to catch Mrs Khoo cos I was late though :( and didn't get to talk to them much cos 1. there were too many people. 2. It's not like I could ever talk to them comfortably anyway.... heheh to me they're still scary teachers.

quote chermaine:

朋友一生一起走!!! ♥

Went up to OUR (hahahaahaha) "rooftop" and talked, played indian poker with levels, took more more pictures like we always do before heading home at around 10+pm. wheee.

This has been a SUPER long post and I'm getting lazy. So CNY pics!!! Wahoo.

The cutest and sweetest 三兄弟s ever!!!!

cousins woohoo ♥♥

Went over to mama's place on chuyi (as usual) and spent the whole day there (as usual). Watched half of Johnny English on the computer and went to watch Journey 2: The Mysterious Island after that!! I THOUGHT IT WAS A SUPER GOOD MOVIE but other people fell asleep :( I even got whacked when I said I liked it hahahahahaha. Grace has great taste yeah.

Went to bashu's house aka the lion dance house on chu er and... watched lion dance. Standing <1m away from the lions/dancers was a TRAUMATISING experience. Emerged smelling like oranges cos they kept throwing the oranges/orange peel at me!!

Squished in a car and went over to Northpoint to watch We Not Naughty after that! Super good once again. Must be making up for Sherlock Holmes eh.
Laughed like crazy/cried like a baby watching the show (as I do in like every single on of Jack Neo's movies. ahem)(or every movie, actually) and felt so happy seeing Joshua Ang and Shawn Lee on big screen again :') Felt like a proud mother watching them (though they are eh... 5/6 years older than me).

MUST WATCH!!! heheh
Was a bit disgusted when Amos Yee appeared and I actually feel like cropping him out of the poster now but I'm too lazy and kind to but every other part was good.

Anyway my life now consists of work, work, the piano, the cat, the computer, sleep, and food.

Random pictures dundundundun

MEOW.

My entertainment in the past few days without a computer :) I do much more productive things when there's no computer in front of me but I still love this bebeh I'm currently typing on. Watched Spirited Away two days ago and I can watch it a million times more :') It was what triggered my sudden piano playing in case you were wondering. One of the OSTs are by Joe Hisaishi! which is how I found out about him. woots.

Watched 3 eps of God of Study last night in brother's room and cried an ocean. I LOVE THIS SHOW AND YOO SEUNGHO SO MUCH DDDDDD': hahaha k.

Schools's starting in a few days and I can't believe my three months of holiday flew by so fast!! Tuao -> Europe -> Countless meetings with 6A -> Results -> NOW.

Outing with 4/3'11 on Monday!! Excited but not so excited at the same time cos I kind of don't like Marina barrage but nah I'm not gonna complain. What's a lousy location when you're with your friends, right? :)

AND CHEER UP WHOEVER'S READING THIS!!!

Seems like the whole world (aka people I follow on twitter) is emoing. Everything happens for a reason and everybody who's in your life is in it for a reason too, esp your parents (to the countless no. of people complaining about their parents on facebook and twitter)(doesn't even do anything besides letting other people know you have zero respect for your own fumu).

If you wanna emo do it with style like.... type in Korean like sister does or check in to Emoland on facebook/twitter.... or take a picture! eat chocolates, cry or pray. prayer is powerful and i am so incoherent right now.

BUAIIIS MUACKS.

You're my kryptonite

2012-01-15T06:41:00.000-08:00

I WANNA STAY UP ALL NIGHT AND JUMP AROUND UNTIL WE SEE THE SUUUN~
Heheh current favourite song woohoo ^^
First time I'm liking a group that actually sings english songs but after what aisyah told me.... :( :( How come there's always a problem with the groups I like :(
Anyways eventful weekend!!
Had 6A bbq on friday ^^ Jolene came over first whoooo haven't seen her since like, sec 1. Was cooking my shepherd's pie (which everyone loved, PHEW. hehe) when the rest turned up.

They went straight to the sofa and collapsed before switching the channel to watch Tom&Jerry while the rest went over to the pit to set up everything and then claudiekoh came in and scolded them and ordered them to go buy ice. hahaha.

Talked and talked and talked and laughed my heart out for the next 4-5 hours. Deborah came!!! HAVEN'T SEEN HER FOREVER TOO. Was kinda worried that it would be awkward after so many years but no! It' s so weird how the both of us laugh at the lamest and unfunny things. Our knock knock jokes will never go out of style (Y) Too bad she's going to RI :( Smarties.

Laughed till I felt like puking my guts out but they make me so happy :')

Woke up at 7 just to go for CCA open house on Saturday morning. Finally met up properly again with all my guiiiiiddeeess whooo. Talked and laughed (AGAIN) all the way from 8am to 1pm when we went to eat at the bubble tea shop!! Missed it so much hah.

Talked to a few of my teachers too, who apparently "expected better" for my results :(
Sigh, me too, me too. but I'm over it LALALALALALA. Results don't make the world go round. and I LOVE MS MOK.
When I saw her she gave me the WIDEST SMILE EVER and patted my cheek and asked me "how?". I was in shock hahaha she's so unbelievably nice omg. ♥ Best chem teacher ever.

With stepppphhhhh! My fellow shopping and seafood fried rice buddy :)

Rushed home to get changed and go out again to support Chermaine for her dance concert!! Contemp dance is so.... DEEP. but I'm SO PROUD of her she dances so incredibly well! Especially since she only started dancing in sec 1!!

(Yeah I notice I'm extremely short :( and in desperate need of a haircut. Call me shaggy woof woof)

Trudged (yeah, trudged) over to Old Airport Road hawker centre and ate the famous Char Kway Teow with Evelyn and Joeycheng!! Wooohooo I love food. Bought some famous lao ban tauhuay and omgggzzz itzzz izzz soooo gooooodddzzzz. hahahaha.

"Good food must take picture"
and today!!
Went to church as usual but was super sleepy and hungry during service I almost died. Plus I couldn't sing properly cos of the massive amount of laughing and screaming in the past two days :(
Facilitating for youth one was better than expected though! Thank God. I was (and still am, actually) scared that I wouldn't be able to set a good example and blahblahblah.
Whooshed to suntec with Gladys to buy her new phone but they were already out of stock :( Embarrassed ourselves like crazy in the train (as usual)(every moment in public with gladys will be embarrassing). Ended up walking around saying hi to all my 320493 friends working there haha. Headed to prata shop for GLADYS' careteam after that. I love pwata nomnom.
K that's all bye! I'm thinking I'm less scared of going to a new school now after what we talked in church today phew.
^^

'cos even the stars, they burn

2012-01-12T19:52:00.000-08:00

Didn't feel like posting but I just came back from the most fruitful HTHT with Rachel at J8 and I just felt the need to post hahaha.
Results in < 24 hours! Nervous but not freaking out because what's done's done and God has a plan for everything :) I've shortlisted some JCs depending on what I get but I'll only be sure after attending all the open houses lah. ------Ok it's been five days since results were released but I couldn't bear to post what I typed above cos I feel like it's a post wasted. HAHA.
Met Aisyah (WOOOHOOOOOOOOO AFTER THE LONGEST TIME EVER) for breakfast at macs on doomsday before heading to school! Talked and started shaking with fear halfway through while we were talking about results brrr. Her class guys came to join us after a while and we had a mini celebration/heart attack when someone said Anderson's EMath MSG was 1.0. Turned out it was only 4/1 -_- chey.

Hall looking scarier than ever

Was quite disappointed when I received the dreaded slip of paper but didn't shed a tear cos I told myself I'm going to be thankful no matter what. Mulled over it on the way home but when I stepped out of the bus I felt happy again ^^ (sorry gay moments)
Visited SA/AJ/AC's openhouses the day before yesterday with Kaien, Serina and Bella who are all not going to the same school as me :( Unless I get into NY, which is like, my fourth choice.
Just submitted my JAE and I'm EXTREMELY (like, extreme) scared about going to a new school. I wonder where I got the courage to step into Anderson in the middle of the year with hardly any friends D: boohooooo. I shall not reveal my school choices till I know my posting results heheh. For now I'll just try not to think about it and pray pray pray pray pray pray.
Heard so many things about how people grow up in JC and turn into party animals and all BUT SO IRONIC RIGHT WHY ESPECIALLY AC AND SA? HUH.

ok enough of my siao JC ramblings.
Met up with my buddy and cheryl after schoolhopping for dinner at Holland Village! I live like a whole universe away but that was my THIRD time there in < 10 days. Ate at Everything With Fries but no pictures cos I was famished and ingested everything within 2 seconds of the plate landing on the table. So grateful for friends like them who I can tell everything to woohoo (and gladys foo)(whose name appears on every single post, I'm quite sure)(If one day I become famous she's gonna be famous too)(who am I kidding?).
Funniest train ride home with buddy listening to her talk nonstop about STUFF hahahahahaha. I still laugh when I think about it. I think she was drunk on fatigue and dread of going to work the next day ahahaha.
SPEAKING OF WORK, I'm gonna start work again next week :(but no more packing so yayayayay.
k byegotta go shopnsave to buy stuff for BBQ with 6A LATER OHYEAH.

Walking down heaven's road

2012-01-06T09:37:00.000-08:00

GREAT GREAT DAY TODAY!!
In a supergood mood so I decided I should at least upload a few pictures ^^

Just came back from youth singing fellowship!! Met mah buddy before heading over to chenyi's place and sang till I died but I had a super time anywayyyy.
Ate chicken rice for dinner and set my mouth on fire by acting pro and pouring alllll the chilli onto my chicken. Sang some more and learnt a few more songs before going over to Holland V for "supper"!

Was going to lepak at Swensen's but they had no more space :( hhaahahah I was waiting in Swensen's for tables when the boys started discussing toiletbowls and having good aiming and cleaning up your mess when you're done.
I got a barrooooon too!!! ^^ I love balloons. Balloons can make my saddest day ^^v

Meet yerrow yerrow dirty ferrow HAHAHHAA.

Walked over to cold stone when the others found the place and sat down to talk!! Talked till it was almost midnight and got a lift home from Joseph :) Heheh shameless forever getting lifts home.

ANYWAYYYY random pictures!!

Kevin and Drunk Daryl on the night of sleepover hahahaa. This was right before Daryl konked out, rolled off the sofa and onto the floor (and the dog)

Sorraye LQ photos :( I didn't save the originalll. ULTIMATE PIG DAY with sister after I saw a picture of pizza on tumblr and had a major craving for it heheheeeeeee.

Yesterday when I cooked shepherd's pie for dinner for the famz. I'm totally a born chef HAHA. Ignore the prawns. Mummy was trying to finish all the food in the fridge hahaha.

Pabourite animal in the wooorld :)

Okay so.

Results in 2 days!!!! I AM SO..... IDK. I have no idea what to expect :(

Gonna confide in my imaginary friend now.

HAHAHAHA.

Goodnigggght.

You can count on me

2012-01-03T07:55:00.000-08:00

(via)
"It's okay to visit Memory Lane, just don't live there."
This pretty much summarises what I've learnt in the past few days of meeting up with the people in my life, countless souptalks, and clearing my extremely congested mind and now i'm SO HAAAPPPIIIIEEEEE ^^
I feel so incredibly blessed and contented and... happy (sorry limited vocabulary again).
Got back home from TUAO 2010 reunion/sleepover about 5 hours ago!!
Met up with the people watching Sherlock Holmes (I fell asleep. End of review) and ate lunch at the Kopitiam (been to like 2349084 coffeeshops/hawker centres/kopitiams in the past week) before heading to the cinema where I freezed to death and had a very nice nap.
Trained over to Joseph's house and souptalked before dinner and singing/devo (by John!). Played boggle/taboo/searched for Wii controllers to play Mario Kart but to no avail :( Stayed up till arnd 530 in the morning with Kevin and Daryl talking and laughing at the MOST RANDOM things ever. In the end Daryl and I KO-ed and left Kevin to watch soccer by himself. Not that I would have joined him. Soccer......
Woke up at 930 and everyone was up except for the host HAHA. Ate breakfast when the host finally woke up and soup/randomtalked until 2 and left hhahaa.
I looooooooovvvvvvveeeeeeeee our 2010 team sosososo much :) and 6A too. Sigh so blessed right.
Anyway new year resolutions!!To make this year the best year out of my 16 (soon 17) years of life and to the bestest friend to all my friends :)
THAT'S ALL! Goodnight ^^

Last day of 2011!

2011-12-30T19:53:00.001-08:00

So.... it's 31/12/2011 and... life goes on.

Half a day to church tomorrow
2 days to TUAO 2010 reunion/sleepover
8 days to TUAO 2011 lunch
9 days to RESULTS DAY
14 days 6A BBQ!
31 days to the first day of school

Welcome to my life.

The computer is being a terrible friend now so I can't watch videos/scroll my life away on tumblr/lookbook or bloghop or do anything but blog so I'm here!!! Can't stand being bored omg but I'm sososooooo lazy I refuse to do anything productive.
Hah.

AND I HAVEN'T CUT MY HAIR!!!! I've been wanting to cut since f.o.r.e.v.e.r but I went out ytd and lost the chance to do so!! zzz pfft.

Anyways I'm finally stepping into PPCOC again after one whole month. Karnot believe how fast December flew past me. excites excites excites. I just want to sleep now and wake up tomorrow morning but i can't cos it's 6pm. Thinking of going out to runnnnn.... ok fine. I shall after dinner. 6km gogogo!

bye. hehe

♥

2011-12-29T22:14:00.000-08:00

6A07

2011-12-29T09:30:00.000-08:00

Just came back from 6A07 gathering!! (again ^^)
Everytime I come back from our gatherings my heart feels like it's going to explode with so much love and thankfulness for these people. ♥

It Will Rain - Bruno Mars

I'm waiting for claudiekoh to upload the pictures taken with her DSLR + the pretty pretty polaroids we took.

Worked from 9-3 today for mummy and at the beginning I just wanted to go home cos I was so lonely and sleepy haha. Spent the whole time staring at the clock and counting down the hours to our gathering. Can't believe I almost skipped it!!! omg. Thank God for quanyi's pestering or I my life would be miserable now haha.

Met everyone at the bus stop before heading over to Joey's house!! Talked for awhile and ate chocolate before starting our running man marathon. heheh followed by dinner and then the 20 of us sitting in a circle playing I Have Never and talking about everything under the sun. Got bored and decided to play the drawing game thingy inspired by running man!!

Have known everyone for at least 6-8 years and I'm sosososososso thankful we still meet up and stay frieeends ♥ ^^ (I say the same thing everytime btw sorry if I bore you HA)
but there's a con to meeting them!! THEY MAKE ME WANT TO GO TO RI/HC SO BAD but I'm a coward and I don't dare to even imagine myself getting 2 points :( Ah well my future lies in God's hands so I shan't worry :)

Anyway I read a tweet this morning that knocked some sense into my recently-emo head.

You can be sad, or you can man the fuck up and find something to be happy about. Of course the world will suck, but only if you let it. -@jesslovesfred (via twitter)

(excuse the vulgarities)

Can't wait for Sunday and Tuao 2010 reunion on Monday!
All thanks to 6A my 2011 has ended perrrrrrrrrrrfectly :)

Anywayz ran 5km yesterday and swam 1.5km today and my whole body is aching like crazy cos I haven't had proper exercise is more than a month!! zz wanted to run another 5 tomorrow but I think I'm just gonna rest tomorrow heh.
Looking forward to Friday the 13th!! BBQ w/ 6A AGAIN WHOOOO.

ohey

2011-12-26T22:47:00.000-08:00

I'm back due to obvious reasons aka 'there is nothing better to do'.
If things had stayed the way they were seven days ago oh yeahhhhhhh would I have better things to do. But now everything has changed and I'm just bored and sad. Mm.

:(

I'm talking to Gladys again while trying to ketchup with mah frans from skul.

-------
uh.. nine hours later.

CURRENT FAVOURITE SONG ^^

I'm totally over my stupid sadness now after talking to Gladys, a lot of stalking, a little bit of anger, and hours of laughing.
I still laugh when I think about it.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Sorry for speaking in code :B

Anyway back to today!

Shall I bore the hell out of everyone and blog everyday about my extremely interesting life?
I shall.

Just came back from dinner at hawker centre with the family! Ate carrot cake yesterday and ban mian today (because there wasn't any meepok). I LOVE SINGAPORE FOOD SO MUCH. hehheheheh.

Feeling quite incoherent and crazy now (as you have probably realised) but I'd rather feel like this than... whatever I felt last night.

WAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

Sorrryyzzz i just had to do it.

Anyway plans for the week!

Going to finally cut my bush of hair tomorrow, out with Gladys/6A07 gathering on thursday (still trying to decide on one ughhh), dental/retail therapy (cough) on friday, meeting my favourite brudders and sistas after a WHOLE MONTH on sunday, tuao 2010 sleepover on monday-tuesday! YEAH.
This is the life i'm talking about.
Right now my biggest worry is whether I should buy THIS shoe or THAT shoe.
I'm so idiotic right hahahaha

So thankful now I am void of bad feelings ^^

GOODBYE LUV YOU ALL.

whatcha sayyyy

2011-12-26T07:03:00.000-08:00

Been blog hopping for the past few hours after my satisfying $2.50 carrot cake dinner for the first time (I think) this year. Being back in SG feels so... idk, surreal.

So I decided since I am my most avid reader (no doubt)(at all)(pfft) I'm going to type an EXTREMELY lengthy post about the past one month (and snippets of the past year) I spent not in singapore. Without pictures. ^^

Soooooo.... TUAO.

Let's just start with the sleepover I don't remember blogging about, but if I have you can just read everything again. I'm actually too lazy to check if I have. Mm.
Met up with the team + Baguio team in the morning (I arrived early!! Surprise, surprise) and shuttle bus-ed over to NSRCC. Nothing much, actually. Practised our songs by the sea before it started raining and we had to go to our chalets which were surprisingly very nice (nice. this is how limited my vocabulary is. NICE), lepak-ed (new favourite word. and activity) around for awhile before going over our skits, eating dinner and presenting our songs and skits to the parents. This is gettting boring.

Went back to our own chalet where Shawn devo-ed and washed our feet, washed up and then back to the 'living room' to watch MTV/Toy Story/Paranormal activity. (I'm actually very tempted to upload some pictures but... nahhhh. Laziness > everything else). Had a very detailed discussion about meeting a ghost in the toilet in the middle of the night which eventually went nowhere.

Woke up the next morning to my very pleasant and soothing alarm which earned a very loud "Shhhhhh!!!!!" from the boys downstairs, breakky and then home.

*out of point and totally unrelated to tuao
Rushed home to put my bags down and get changed before rushing out to school again to ATTEMPT to get the school jacket. Ended up walking round the school searching for a certain Mrs. Something (I forgot. heheh. Kumar or something) I never knew existed. Got frustrated and sweaty and smelly and was supposed to meet half of pinkclouds to go cut hair so I just left empty-handed :(

Anyway the next few hours were spent walking around grumpily because of something I am simply too lazy to talk about. HAHA. (Reading this post must be such a pain)

so back to tuao!!!

Stopped by at ahma's house before rushing off to the airport! As usual, last one there. Mingled around with the people sending us off and the people going with us before singing a song (yeah in front of the rest of the world in the airport) and.. yeah going to tuao.

I am NOT going to describe every single tiny detail of the 12 days spent there (though I seem to be heading in that direction) so I'm just gonna write whatever hit me most or changed my life or actually, whatever comes to my mind.

I wasn't the most excited to go to Tuao this year because of uhm... personal reasons I am too embarrassed to say here. Part of it was because my close friends were all going to Baguio and I wasn't close to anyone in the Tuao team at all, but I'm glad over the 12 days I have managed to establish strong (hopefully) friendships with some people. Every cell in my body wishes so hard that these bonds will never break but the future seems dark (heh) because of some lousy brains and malfunctioning mouths that can't seem to close.

Aside from the team itself I'm so glad the kids remember me!! My fan club has been completely destroyed thanks to a certain 14-year-old kid magnet (who is actually not very far from being a kid himself) but that's okay because... yeah it's just ok.

Broke tradition completely and didn't go padi planting OR the mountain hike. Went to callao caves where I was totally rolling in the mud like the pig I am. Was actually looking forward to the rice planting but aww God has his own plan, eh.

(This post is becoming incredibly disorganised. Should I put it in point form or something. ah nvm)

Will never forget our precious souptalks (or htht, as some people call it)(I actually never knew what a htht was. I mean, of course I know what it stands for but what kind of conversation actually qualifies for that uhm... title?), monkeying around with patric while painting the church building, feeling guilty after that for monkeying around and hardly getting any work done, squeezing in the jeepney for our two hour ride to and from the caves and making sure the people around me don't knock into each other or fly out of the jeepney, my throne where I have all my meals, our Epic Joke Battles before dinner, the stupid scenario game everyone has a love-hate relationship with, bawling my eyes nose mouth throat out on the last day, making people (person, actually) cry, staying up till 4 in the morning talking about soup and attempting to finish (or rather start on) our affirmation cards, the 12-hour bus ride to Fontana, the fastest affirmation session ever in the history of Tuao mission trips.

ok I'm getting lazy to type and think. Shall stop the verbal vomit on Tuao, skip the Europe part of my life and move on to talk about 2012.

I would say this year has been the best and most fulfilling year of my life but it's not ending on a very good note :( but I will try my best not to think of it and go back to the old life of spending hours looking at clothes and missing the days when my only worries were not having enough money to buy clothes.

On a brighter note (IRONY IRONY IRONY IRONY HOW COULD THIS BE BRIGHTER) results in 14 days! I currently have no feelings about it but I'll update you when I'm about to die from anxiety (which I know will happen very soon. Or maybe not. When I took my chinese results it only happened while I was halfway up the four flights of stairs to my extremely high classroom).

Oh I forgot to mention that there is nothing like stargazing 40000ft above sea level. SOOOO BIUUUUDIFOOOL. I love stars.

Abrupt ending. Beeeeeep.

PS: This didn't turn out to be as lengthy as I thought it would be. Oh welllll.

bake bake

2011-11-26T07:55:00.001-08:00

Been working for the past week and it's so so boring hahaha but I get $$$$ so I will ENDURE!!!!! Anywayz I'll be flying away in less than a week O: 2011 passed so fast!!! But besides work my life has been a bit interesting recently.

Gladys and Rachel both came over to my house to bake rainbow cupcakes!

I shan't post pictures cos they were quite (yeah, quite) failures. Being the amateurs we are we totally messed up the cupcake mix or whatever you call it so we discarded the first batch and made a new one with rona che2's help. Over-beat it a little but they still taste good so yeaaaaah. And then Gladys felt it such a waste to throw the first batch away so we ended up trying to save it. Made cookie dough without remembering that we were using self-raising flour so we got tasteless cookie-shaped little muffin thingys which I threw away eventually. 8)

Went off for Tuao practice after that and reached 1 hour late thanks to our baking session. Finalised all the props and sang 2010 songs w/ G&R + Shawn/John/Veldas. Miss them sooooo muchhie muchie muchie. Went home alone cos they had to leave early. I'm always going home alone. It's either I get a lift from someone all the way home or I go home alone.

And today!
Reached Olivia's house early for careteam (*cue gasps of amazement*) and waited for 15 minutes cos no one was at home (not even Olivia hahaha), ate breakfast and checked-in before going to bake our bittersweet molten lava chocolate cakes!

This one was good so it deserves pictures. Muahaha.

Say hello to my phone camera and its ability to take good macro pictures. hahaha.

So this explains the title of my post. I can't believe I actually baked twice in two days! I'm not a very bakey female cos I prefer to cook food (like, food) so I'm quite proud of the chocolate cake muahaha.

Class chalet on Monday/Tuesday/Wednesday and I'm still thinking if I should go!!! :( :( I want to go but I still want to work and earn moneh moneh moneh. Tuao sleepover is on Wednesday/Thursday toooooo omgggg. I'm going to be so tired when I finally get to Tuao hahaha. but at least I'm not lazing around at home.

Shall go on a super diet when I come back from Europe (can someone make an agreement for me to give him/her 100 bucks if this doesn't happen?) cos Tuao/Europe = a lot of weight gain.

Oh oh oh oh oh WE GOT FREE TICKETS TO MAMA!!!!!!!!! so hopefully I don't completely lose my hearing on that day yeah. hahahaha.

Just watched xing and old u-kiss videos with sister and I misssss them so much :'(

U-KISS where did your innocence go.

K abrupt ending BYE.

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2011-11-20T21:18:00.001-08:00

Figured I should give this bloggie some life and upload some random pictures I took in the past year! heheh. Ultra random I know but what can I do? I'm too free.

Random photo of my affirmation cards from Tuao 2010! Ok speaking on tuao, this year's team isn't so bad after all. At least I have good friends in the team and anyway the main point's not going there to party with your friends, right? Only left with one problem now and I will never know how to solve it :( Just gotta keep praying sighhh.

Back in... some month when sister and I sat in coffee bean eating cheese cake and drinking ice blended lemonade after shopping at H&M, and then me crashing her careteam 8)

Liqing's birthday party!

Green tea frappe *_* Never liked Starbucks cos everything was coffee and I HATE coffee but now I love Starbucks because of this heheh. Took this when I went to 'study' for chem MCQ with Cheryl and Gladys! Ended up talking about rubbish (as usual) and looking at the tumblers in Starbucks for half an hour and walking out without even buying any.

Clearing my room.... it's still not done but I gave up anyway. I can continue when we I come back from Philippines and Europe. But it was nice going through my stacks of papers. Found my unsigned result slips from the past year, my O level cert for chinese (LOL), NYAA cert, and my 7 straight A1s for chem revision tests \m/

While I was waiting for the rest to finish 11am service... striped wally shirt from some random blogshop, envelope clutch, mustard skirt and shoes from Bugis and sister's (cough) blazer from Korea, with Patric sleeping next to me. Crazy guy was having a high fever but didn't want to go home cos his birthday was the next day (today) and he didn't want his family to worry. Aww.

Practice ytd was fun I guess. Skipped lunch and almost died halfway hahaha. Crashed Cheryl's careteam after that (forever crashing careteams and not going to my own zzz) and ended up snacking on potato chips D:

Headed over to Gladys' house after that to celebrate Rachel's birthday! Been talking to her so much heheheh . Wish I could post the picture of her window (and the words on it) here but it's a secret soooooooo I can't but it was so funny it made me laugh for like 20 minutes straight. Took lots of other stupid photos but you can find them on facebook heheh. The last two photos were taken in her toilet! Prettiest toilet I've ever stepped into hahaha (that and I look nice in the mirror)

Haha had our girlytalk for about 10 minutes while reading _____'s letters to Gladys before going home again. Gladys is such an inspiration even though she's younger than me ♥

K I think I'm done with my random postttt. Can't wait for Europe and Tuao! Trying to lose some weight now and gain some muscle before going overseas. Food is so nice in Tuao but controllllll controllllllllll. I'll get sick of the food in Europe after a few days so I'll just eat all I want then. Haha. (This is a lie. I never get sick of food)

Anyway I think mummy was right -- I actually kind of miss studying :/ Or rather, having something to do. Right now my mind is forever floating in the clouds. Zero worries and sense of urgency to anything D: Starting work tomorrow but I'm so not looking forward to it haha. I don't even have a colleague that is not more than 30 years older than me zzz but this means more efficient weight-losing because I don't wanna eat lunch with them or by myself or anything. Hahaha.

Ok goodbye! Dental at 4. Can't wait to get this gross metal shit out of my mouth already but I have like 2 years to go. UGHHH.

111111

2011-11-11T07:02:00.000-08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY or rather, myself hahaha.

I'm talking to gladys now about tuao 2010 and I miss how everything was one year ago during this period :( all our daily practices and sleepovers and talking about all sorts of rubbish, playing albatross games, meeting up to cab over to joseph's house-in-the-middle-of-the-jungle, trying to find the harmonisation for 'at the beginning', and then falling sick of the lariam pills (which i just got last sunday again ugh), singing at the airport, being stuck in manila for two whole days, going up the same escalator four times, eventually taking the bus to tuao and the life-changing adventure that followed

Our nightly debriefings, pigging out on cup noodles in the middle of the night, killing toads, setting them on fire, the talks we have every night before going to bed, waking up with bed hair and washing our faces outside and not caring how we look like, the three million photos we take each day, the vbs, rice planting, school painting, failed singing, the warm and fuzzy feeling when a little boy who doesn't even understand what you're trying to say runs up to you and hugs you, the home stay, singing karaoke at the villagers' houses, hiking up the mountain and everything else.

I miss the long girly talks I have with gladys every once in a while and it's so weird how when she was in our careteam i wasn't close to her at all but now that she's not we've become so close :'(

anyhow exams are almost over and I'm left with only 2 MCQ papers!! so glad I'm done with the crazy papers which were... well, crazy. not exactly confident for any of the papers! none of them were exceptionally good but there were some really bad ones :( but it's all in God's hands now so there's no point mulling over it now right? right? right right right?

Prom is next friday! Can't wait to see everyone dressed up and made up and different from the usual ponytail fringe up pinafore. Can see my friends giving stupid comments though cos most of them think i'm actually a guy and have never worn a skirt before.

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oh hey it's three days later now but i couldn't bear to post what i typed above cos it seemed too short and i didn't want to waste a post HAHA.

anyhoo one more paper left! one more hour of sitting at my beloved 0151 desk doing a paper. (btw the shading boxes are so tiny i think the shading part was the hardest of all)

haha. met gladys and cheryl for lunch and 'studying' on saturday! super impromptu ahaha as a result of our random facebook chat in the morning. Ate at some unknown cafe called Romulus but my al-funghi pasta was heaeaaaavenly haha.

Went to starbucks after to meet cheryl and stayed there till evening! wanted to buy matching tumblers but couldn't decide on a design and gave up on the idea haha. What's new? we actually stood there for 15 minutes trying to agree on something but we never did.
Anyway missed bobby buddy and wishing her luck for her a levels! Sucks that all of us are in different stages of student life (LOL) so our exams all end at different times :( (gladys ended her eoys ages ago, i just ended my o's (ok not really), bobby's just started her a's and cheryl hasn't even started her exams yet).

Came home, rushed through dinner before heading out again to watch 2359 with the cousins! Scaaary

haha

I concluded on a new dream I have. I'm going to see the aurora borealis one day

B-L-O-C-K is bang~

2011-09-14T07:26:00.000-07:00

^^ teehee my new craze ♥♥

Prelims ended today! I'm not even happy I don't feel any sense of accomplishment/achievement or anything because this marks the beginning of something more important ): ): ): which is olevels ): ): ):

sighhh I'm so scared leh.

I'm so lazy I just want to sit somewhere and watch blockb *cough* videos the whole day ):

Need to hurry and come up with a good study plan and find the place where I can study best!!!!! Library cafe was good and it's near but I don't want to spend money! Need to save $$$. Starbucks also need to be buy dwwwink ):

Anyway HAPPYZDAY to the super crazy tall and talented ZICO! I love your fellow rappers HAHAHHAHAA.

I actually have no clue what to type anymore...

Stayed at centris during the sept hols wheee. During the week I felt like time was passing so slowly but WHY ARE MY HOLIDAYS OVER SO FAST?????

I really cannot wait to overseas at the end of the year. I'm so glad I won't be in Singapore for like the whole of December ^^v and then after I will work for mummy in Jan and earn $$$ woots.
Everybody on twitter seems to be studying now??? even though prelims are just over??? I know o's not over yet lah but no need take break one meh??? I'M SO SCARED OF THESE PPL.

I miss my 6A people already ): ahhahaha EOYEOY we will meet again!

ok abrupt ending yah I really don't know what to type. I thought I would have a whole speech since prelims are over and I want to thank my parents and friends and everyone who has supported me but I... don't have anything to say. blah.

That's where I'll always love you

2011-09-02T10:08:00.000-07:00

"When we consider the blessings of God - the gifts that add beauty and joy to our lives, that enable us to keep going through stretches of boredom and even suffering - friendship is very near the top."

Donald W. McCullough

I have lots to post and and talk about but right now nothing could be more important than this hehe.
I have so much to be thankful for this week woots woots.

Teachers' Day Celebration yesterday and out with 6A07 people! ♥
Celebration was boring as usual cos they luurrrffff placing our class at the second floor where we (I) can't see aaaannnything so obv i didn't enjoy the perf.
Geog before celebration was okay. I just wanted to get over and done with it hahaha.

Went home with Tiffany, Chloe and Serina after school and played rubbish board games and card games till 5. Went to mummy's office for a while before finally meeting my favourite people who I haven't seen in a million years wheeeee. We were supposed to attend their mooncake festival thingo but the coupons were expensive and nothing looked very attractive so we decided to go to thomson plaza for dinner! But before that we sat in the middle of the field #likebosses and took lots and lots and lots and lots of photos.

Koped two photos from Junwei's FB but FB wasn't being nice and didn't allow me to copy the pictures straight off so I took screenshots which explain the like/comment thing in the corner which I am obviously too lazy to remove or do anything to.

Headed to Pizza Hut after the walkathon from aitong all the way to thomson plaza hahaha ^^v

Stayed at Pizza Hut until 9+ when the waiter chased us out hahahaha. Nobody felt like going home yet so we decided to go to the Kopitiam to talk and talk and talk. Ended up chatting s o m u c h and laughing till our jaws hurt. Best part was obviously when we were talking about all the stupid/crazy things we did back in 07. It seems like such a long time ago but I'm glad God put me in this nerdy smartypants class because almost no one has changed everybody is so preciouuuus. Not to mention talking to them about studies makes me feel SUPER GUILTY. crazy people are all topping their classes and schools.

I'm so thankful even after 4 long years we still meet rather frequently and are able to talk to each other so comfortably and have so much fun. Growing up together in ATS obviously made us.... idk, similar? (LOL IDK), especially our exaggerated hand movements and weird expressions that we use and super comical way of telling stories that people from other schools don't appreciate hahahaha ♥

Ok enough of 6A aka the best fwenz you could have.

Super thankful my prelims are almost over and I'm done with all my major papers! We're only left with science MCQs and maths.... and 52 days to O's dun dun dun dunnn~~~~

After my human geog paper I was totally YEYEYYEYEYEEEEAAAARGHGHGHGHHHHHHHYESYEYSYESSSSS hahaha but i need to wake up soon cos olevels are not even here yet ):
I can do this oh yeah.

Have been super inconsistent with QT and hopefully I can start againnnn booooooo.

Oh and ran ~5km with brother just now and I'm surprised I'm still alive and awake now! woots haha.

K have to wake up super early to get to Gillian's house on time tomorrow for careteam ): (I have to hop from red line to circle line and then to purple line. but good how Kovan is now only four stops from amk (Y)) and then after I'm going for the OFFICIAL 6A07 gathering ahahahaaha.
I half-hope we're watching movie cos I haven't watched one in monttthhhs and I want to watch Glee/Smurfs (which quanyi calls the 'BLUE MONSTERS' -_-).

ok goodnight.

everybody knows you tried

2011-08-25T18:01:00.000-07:00

HELLO I FINALLY HAVE A COMPUTER!
So many things have happened (ok not really) and I'm still in the middle of my prelims but I can't upload pics/blog properly now cos I'm too busy (hahaha righttt) :B

U-kiss couldn't have released a better song at this time of the year. When I get my olevel results back I will listen to it and cry tears of joy/sadness (depending on my results...) hahahahaha.

Ok I have a lotttt I have to talk about because my life has been ~quite~ eventful lately.

k wow the last time I blogged was after farewell... that was a million years ago ;_;

OK LET'S GO.

Went for Joseph's one-month-in-advance farewell/birthday party on 20/07 and sent him on just four days ago.... yeah.
Anyway I really miss the Tuao team last year ;_; I can't seem to connect with the members this year but I guess by the time we'll be more bonded hahaha. but ngl I'm starting to develop negative feelings towards soooooomeone but I'll try to control control control control ok.

Anyway on monday when we went to send joseph off I ended school at 0930! so I managed to reach the airport by 12 (and his flight was at 2355 yah) so I studied for four hours straight before meeting the rest and going to popeye's to study more hahaha. But by then my brains were already fried so I couldn't take in much and decided to just slack in one corner.

I'm so glad I went to Tuao last year and got closer to these people ♥

Ok back to prelims!
Things haven't been going too well.....
but i don't know, I'm just going to wait and see what happens. Add math paper yesterday scared me because I thought it was difficult while everyone else felt it was an easy paper ;_;
Thought chem was okay at first as well but realied I made so many mistake after that, not to forget all my supercareless mistakes in my bio paper. siggghhhh.

I'm just screwing up one paper after another. So far I've never gotten the YESSSDONE feeling after any paper (ok i did for phy geog, then I realised I prob lost a lot of marks somewhere) ): ): ): ): ):

I obviously should be studying now but I don't want to hahahaha cos u-kiss just told me "Everybody knows you tried, everbody knows it's alright. You get some right, you get some wrong" .:. I conclude I have tried and it's normal to get some things wrong hehehehehehhee :B

going out to study later with sister woohooo but she's not awake yet so I will continue using the computer.

Replayed Someday a few million times already. Listen to it if you haven't! You will fall in love heheheh.

Oh yeahhhh I had a super good dream yesterday! If only it could come true 흑

byeeeeeee.

조금 힘들어도 웃는 날이 와, 결국 웃는 날이 올꺼야 ♥

AUF WIEDERSEHEN

2011-07-16T00:34:00.000-07:00

had SUPER tiring week but it was awesomezzzz.
9 tests this week nearly killed me but I made it through! woots next week will be less tiring thankfully with no extra lessons and only 5-6 tests? which means I don't need to wake up at 3am everyday ^^

Senior's farewell for guides was on wednesday! Was contemplating if I should go cos i didn't feel like it but decided since I only had math/eng tests the next day and I miss the people I should go.
Spent a BOMB on the gifts but giving is happiness whooo.

Ate pizza and watched a video made my the sec3s ♥ I find it funny how they are SO different from us sec4s, but still glad that they feel comfortable around all of us unlike how we felt uncomfortable around some of our seniors last year heheh.

Group photo!

and then on Friday...
KMW!
I know I said I wouldn't go cos it's not worth it but... I got PEN B TICKETS FOR 100 BUCKS. NOW HOW IS THAT NOT WORTH IT? though I'm not a YG fan (and nobody's fan but u-kiss) I still managed to watch all the people who I never dreamt of watching (and never even planned to watch LOL).
but the groups that stood out most to me that night were FT Island, TOUCH, DGNA and... U-KISS.
BB seemed so surreal and I could only see them from the big screen actly hahahha.

Was sad I didn't save a lightstick for myself ): Ended up having to jump around waving pink balloon that nobody even saw lol. U-KISS didn't see us nor did they see the pink balloons and lightsticks.
Our rsquarepi was denied yesterday *clutches heart*

but all in all I still had a fun time hehe. Jumping to FTI's 빙빙빙 and singing like there's no tomorrow to 멍하니. First time I actually watched FTI perform though they've been here SO many times. Was watching hongki the whole time and thinking how I used to like him so much and.. T_T

TOUCH guys were SUPER NICE especially guy who was dressed like a waiter, whoever he is. I still have yet to find out his name zzz. I tried yesterday but gave up.
BOYS Y U LOOKING MORE AND MORE LIKE EACH OTHER???

Miss A was SO PRETTY ESPECIALLY SUZYYYY AND JIA. OMG JIA.
Couldn't stop staring at her the whole time (k cos she was on my side of the stage). She was so friendly and pretty! and her chinese! O:

DGNA was AMAZING THEIR VOICES *O* *O* *O* ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ PLUS THE PORORO JACKET HAHAHA.

FTI

SEUNGRI

Sorry my phone camera sucks when it's dark and everyone's moving I just like these pictures cos they seem quite artsy HAHAHA.

CONFETTI!!! Now i understand why U-KISS likes to eat confetti. It's a challenge man.

YES finally managed to dl dgna's album after trying two million times. woots.

Gotta rush to buona vista now for joseph's farewell surprise I'M SO TIRED I BET I WILL FALL ASLEEP THERE.

Oh right. Waited for a cab for a zillion years last night! It was so cold and it was raining so we almost died but thank God everyone got home safe and sound.

BAIIZ.

love will find a way

2011-07-09T00:03:00.000-07:00

random pictures of what i wore to the dentist on monday.

Braces! ^^ (hehe huge pictures) camera effect covered up all my pimples. I like.

Lousy picture of 4/3. Check out how cluttered and messy it is.

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1. Friday when I decided to go to AMKHub for no reason and all and ended up buying pieces of cloth.
2. My lunch for the past few days. Super love the little onion bits heheheh. Jacelyn gonna scold me cos nobody hates tuna more than she does.
3. My favourite cat/animal in the world woots.

BRACE GRACE

2011-07-06T08:22:00.000-07:00

Grace can't find her memory card reader so she will type this first ): She is feeling sad that she cannot find it but she believes she will one day. When she does she will feel happy.

Anyway school has been tiring but enjoyable so far so PTL for that! yay.
been talking more with my classmates (trying to say 'FISH' properly with braces/retainers) and stuff so I believe we have gotten closer over the past week (I keep typing BELIEBE ugh) haha.
Stayed back in school last friday to finish homework and till now I'm not even close to finishing my holiday homework. I'm hopeless.

Put my braces on Monday! The brackets are treating my mouth well but the wire is terrible ): cos my teeth stick out so the wire is also sticking out, and whenever I laugh or talk or sing my gums rub against the wire and there's a huge ulcer there now but... no choice meh.

Not exactly looking forward to my 9 tests next week but I know I can pull through. This week actually wasn't very stressful even though we had 5 tests haha. Got back my bio results and I'm totally demoralised now cos practically all the band 2 students got higher marks than the band 1 students. Suspicious...
Comforted myself with the fact that the papers were marked by different teachers and mr. lim was stricter.

But still, my biology is going down the drain I'm so terrible at it zzz and sometimes I ask myself why I still bother if I can never get good grades.
Now that I think of it, I was never very good at bio, mr lim just loves me too much and therefore I'm his "potential A1 student". Still feel like I'm letting him down each time I don't do well.

Weekend is ~quite~ packed so I don't have sufficient time to study!!! 9 tests is really crazy. First tuao practice is on sunday aftn, and then after that I prob have to go home myself from harbourfront -_- which will take me like 1 hour, and then I have math tuition with mummy at 4 until like 7.

;_;

Anyway was reading chermaine's blog and decided to read her blog posts all the way back in 2007! & I miss 6A'07 so much ;_;
Was thinking of how school used to be so fun and stress-free, playing catching in the field every recess, how I never needed to listen in class and passed notes/did stupid stuff all day, mcdonalds treats by ms tan, xxl and mrs khoo, class parties on childrens' day, crushing on trainee teachers (LOLOLOL don't ask for elaboration), being excited to go to school every morning so I can meet the "morning gang" and talk to them, writing in autograph books, playing the aeroplane game, uno and all that funk.

and I saw this!

1.
we, the pupils of 6A.
pledge our love for the class.
to uphold chaos,
to ensure hens and chickens,
to respect ms tan?
to persevere tormenting shenyang :D
to be sincere to our dear class.
and together,
create the BEST CLASS IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!

2.
we, the pupils of 6A,
pledge never to forget this class.
to remember us always,
to keep us in memory,
to keep in touch with one another,
to ensure we dont forget,
to maintain no-cryness also.
and together,
meet up and share times of reminiscence with 6A again!

We were so cute please. and I love how we are still close even after four whole years :') One of the reasons why I actually want to go to a top JC is so that I can be reunited with these people. If I were to choose between HC and RI I will definitely choose HC (at this point of time la) cos my closest pri sch friends are all either in NYGH/HCI now.

and TBH I think I like HC more cos it's like aitong HAHA like chinese-y but not really chinese and stuff.

k if I don't sleep now I can actually forget about getting in at all. SIGHHHH super scared to aim for hc now cos I will be rly sad if I don't get in ): ): ):
I think for now I'm just gonna make sure I try my best and worry about what JC to go to when I get my results back. I AM TERRIFIED OF O LEVELS but I can't get my lazy butt to work harder.

K BUTT PLS WORK HARDER.

Sorry for lack of pictures HAHA.

Walked around AMKHub for two whole hours today aimlessly. I actually went home first, felt bored and decided to go out. First time in my life I've done something like this lolol crazy. Ended up buying a leopardpreenz piece of cloth (honestly) and a turban headband from rubi. Wanted shoes so badly but I can't seem to find the perfect pair muahaha. The shoes in SG are all the saaaammmmeeee.

HAHA K GN really need to sleep or I diez tomoz.

luv u.

I was so lost, and you seemed so far.

2011-06-21T07:48:00.000-07:00

Hello!

I'm back from church camp!
Which kind of made me realise how amazingly socially awkward I am ): Of course I cannot ignore the fact that I hardly have any close friends in class so I was a bit of a loner in school today.

I miss stephanie and aisyah ): which is one of the reasons I actually want school to start hahaha.
and so I can eat my seafood fried rice yum yum.

The separators in my teeth are making my mouth hurtttt soooo baaadddd but I guess it's all worth it in the end HAH.

Been thinking a lot since I came back from camp ): k just kidding when do I ever "think a lot".
but anyway!

...

I ~kind of~ got lazy yesterday so I'm only continuing this post today and I don't remember what was supposed to be after that "but anyway!"

but anyway! :B

School today was funnn even though we only had two hours of it. Luv it when I actually talk more with my other classmates. Was sitting in a circlish thing before mr.arasu came for history talking about teeth extraction hahhhah and braces. and licking your teeth after braces.

FAILED MISERABLY trying to do work yesterday sigh ): my chemistry just layyy in front of me untouched until almost 2am, and then at 2am I tried to ~make up~ for it by going to bed to do longer quiet time (hehe) but that didn't exactly happen either.

...

It's still lying in front of me asdfghjkl.
I shall aim to finish all my chemistry by today ): that is... 6 papers but MCQ is easy peasy hahaha.

Trying to make my prayers at night less of a ~routine~ and pray more for other pplz but I'm so lazy zzz. ZZZZZZZZZZ. WHY AM I A PIG.

Anyway I'm looking forward to Tuao this year! Last year's Tuao trip was an AMAZING experience. The people in the team are sooooo different from last year's but I'm still looking forward to another mind-blowing trip heheh.
Shall try my bestest not to use olvls as an excuse for not going for practices and careteam this semester.

I rly rly want shoes ):
rn I only have two million pairs of sneakers/loafers but only one pair of sandals which I wear every single time I go out cos yknow sometimes sneakers just don't match what you're wearing.

My two pairs of favourite shoes just broke apart and died so I can't wear them anymore ): ): ): ): ):
Oh and I cleared my cupboard today! Turns out I don't have as much clothes and it seems HEHEHEHEHEHE k who am I kidding. Need to save money.

Am actually looking forward to putting my braces on monday/tuesday hahahaha nice teeth here I come!

I am kind of disturbed by how I keep switching topics but I can't help it because I don't have anything to say and I have nofwens so I need to talk about all the random things in life that are happening now.

Sigh so jealous of sister and sue and anthea in korea and all the yumyum food they've been eating and the clothes and shoes they can buy there ):
Nvm I shall study hard and go overseas next time too!

I'm back again hehe. When I feel lazy and don't feel like typing anymore I just close the page and go away and come back later hahha.
anyway random thought.
I was looing at wedding photoshoots the other day and ♥-♥ I need to get married HAHAHAHA.
They look super fun to shoot and the pictures all come out so preeetttyyyy especially those overseas haha.

K GOODNIGHT.
waking up at 4 to do mah chemistray.

FOR YOU, A THOUSAND TIMES OVER.

2011-06-11T10:49:00.001-07:00

I suddenly have the mood to blog blog blog because today was a good day and hence I shall start all the way from campfire!

Somehow we weren't even half as kanchiong as the seniors in the previous years. I heard someone said our campfire was a mess but I feel it's as successful (very successful) as the previous ones. The back half of the hall was ~quiet~ because they were too far so yeaaaah THAT part was messed up. and the souvenirs too. We wrote serangoon GUIDES instead of scouts zzz -_-

Other than that, everything was fine.

Was jumping around and hugging people throughout the campfire and even went on stage to play a game (surprising for anti-social like me k).

Aisyah and I spotted a cuteboiz dancing to shock and aisyah pulled me to go take a photo with him LOL. turns out he's only sec 2 #pedo (and proud that he attracted us it's quite gross).
OH and while I was untying the poles on the benches and the cat high guys were helping out genevieve whispered to me that she found this ~particular guy~ cute and .:. that night I had to use my stalking SKILLZ to find him and I did MUAHAHAHAHA. forever proud of self.

Guides are the most desperate girls on earth srsly.

Celebrated my birthday at home with mango mousse/chocolate cake from the icing room heheh ♥ not very nice but it's the thought that counts HAHAHAHA.

Been doing my homework for the past week but nothing much has been done ): Plan to chiong during church camp but I have this feeling it's not going to work boohoo. I WILL TRY. Besides my room mate is a mugger taking her olvls this year too so I think we can do our work tgt! and cheryl offered to help me w my geog essays muahahaha.

Went out to meet pinkclouds on thursday and celebrated cordelia's birthday at fish&co.! (forevergoodfood) First time there and I'm SO SICK of fish and chips now.

^ THIS. THIS IS KWANGMIN.

Hersheys from liqing that contributed to the cough I'm having now ):

Went to GONGCHA and the rest bought bubble tea but I couldn't cos I was broke ):
Sat at some stonish table nearby and talked about everything under the sun (moon) and took pictures of boyfriend-lookalike cupcakes and danbo!

ON FRIDAY.
Went kiting with cousins at marina barrage! tracie che2 was supposed to come but she gave up waiting for the bus and went shopping instead LOL.

Look at the whale kite! supercoolz.

Cloud-filled sky!!! 8)

After that we went to the xinwang hk cafe place to have dinner and met mr. hershey's on the way!

I couldn't even smell/taste anything thanks to my crazy nose ): ): ):
Went to hershey's after that and tried smelling everything in the shop before I realised I could i don't know... rupture my nose blood vessels by taking in too-strong smells? I DON'T KNOW HAHA. so I decided to stop pressurising my poor nose.

Going crazy with cousin on the way home while playing with iFat Face or something. everybody should play with it. It brings joy to life.

and TODAY!

Was a bit ~siannnnn~ in the morning when I found out the only people going for X-MEN were 4 guys and NO GIRLS (besides me), but I wanted to watch X-MEN and I STILL have no idea how to get to joseph's house after going there regularly for... 6 months cos I always either get a lift from someone or take a taxi heheh.

and so I ended up watching it with the guys (I'm very disturbed by how some of my sentences start with a capital letter and some don't but it's too late to change everything now sigh ):).

Ate lunch at vivocity with a whole bunch of people (INCLUDING OTHER GIRLS WHO SAVED MY LIFE). Movie was supposed to start at 2:10 at PLAZA SING but we totally lost track of time. Ran out of vivo leaving my 3/4-eaten hokkien mee behind ): and being the only girl + lousy sandals, I died, but

NO REGRETS.
It was a super good movie! Felt like sleeping during the fights and boombooms (as usual. BOOM BOOM BOOMS are like lullabies) but overall it was a good movie. This was my first time watching an x-men movie (HEHEHEHEHEHEHEEH LIVING UNDER ROCK) and it was... more enjoyable than expected? Never liked action movies so....

I want to watch Tangled/Enchanted again ):
Best two ~newer~ disney movies.

Hopped on a cab to Joseph's house but still reached there late hahahaha.
Started with check-in for the LAST SIX MONTHS which lasted for what felt like eternity I tell you and everybody had SO MANY THINGS to say. I didn't LOL. Just rambled on and on about random things in life zzz.

Bought six boxes of large pizzas and we finished it all! Best.

After dinner we split up into groups to talk, play monodeal and mario kart. Was playing mario kart and then switched to playing monodeal, got bored and went back to mario kart until 10pm.

and then in the middle of everything we had a accidentally on purpose "partial black-out" and buddy brought out a super nice and crunchy chocolate cake!
Was trying to figure out whose birthday it was when they suddenly sang the birthday song (four times -_-) for me (10 days late obv i wouldn't expect it).
and tbh I almost cried HAHAHAHA TOUCHING TOUCHING TOUCHED TOUCHED.(forevercrybaby)
and during check-in I was just telling everybody how I don't ever get presents on my bday LOL. YL said she was happy to hear that. Now that I think of it they were all quite obvious when I said it lor. All of them were like "HUH WHEN'S YOUR BIRTHDAY? OHHHHH HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY I DIDN'T KNOW!!!"
anyway TOUCHED.

later the other girls (except for cheryl) all suddenly left without me while I was being frustrated with Yoshi so I was left alone with cheryl joseph shawn and joel.

Joel's parents came and after seeing what a poor lonely thing I was living a whole world away from clementi I got a lift all the way back home from joseph kwahahahaha and cheryl too.

He is the scariest driver ever. I expected sister-style driving but we were FLYING over humps ok. Like riding in a mario kart. I expect brother to drive like that also.

Back home again today!

Need to start work again tomorrow before heading out to meet Gladys to prepare for the youth BBQ tomorrow (sigh busy busy) in the aftn.
and after much persuasion I'm going to Tuao again this year!

First time in a long time I've blogged so much O YEAH PROUD OF SELF.

이준 SHE LOVELY?

2011-06-01T07:54:00.000-07:00

TEEN TITANS!

2011-05-27T09:27:00.000-07:00

hehe got my new phone recently (ok maybe not) so I have pictures! all hail my phone camera heheheh.

i'm too lazy to talk about what happened (nothing actually) in the past few weeks so I shall just talk about today's sports day! 8)

4/3 didn't really compete in anything (sigh hhahaha) but it was still the best sports day ever ♥
I'm guessing our banner wasn't even close to winning either ): but that's okay because we have other things to worry and to be sad about (like our results).

(more photos here)(I'm too lazy hehe)

Hairspray/facepaint made everything so much better hahaha. I actually initially thought it was going to be super boring cos we weren't competing in anything.

Ate pizza hut (pigforever) with arnd 20 other people before walking to the stadium. (running, actually). Hurriedly hung our banner up with like a clip and went back to the gallery or whatever they call it.

I had my piro eyes again! HEHE.

Came home and watched 爱 for TWO WHOLE HOURS before going to the gym with brother and now I'm aching all over ): because he made me do weights for the first time in my life.
I realised today...
my body is all fat and no muscle HAHAHA.

Need to make brother drag me to the gym more often.

OH YESHHH.
I FORGOT ALL ABOUT KIBUM.
Shall not post our pinkclouds photo with him because all of us look horrendous.
but anyway our project was a SUCCESS KWAHAHAHA.

Cried a river and looked ugly but zat's okai because we all luv kibumz.

/edit

anyway this event made me realise how different U-KISS is right now without alexander/kibum. maybe the member change didn't affect me as much as other people because dongho is my favourite member, alexander and kibum weren't my favourite members and I DO like AJ and Hoon.

(via omy.sg)

ANYWAY ANYWAY NEW OBSESSION (ok not really i only knew them ytd but SO ATTRACTIVEEEE)

Hehehhhhhhhhhhh but three of them (the three I like the most. currently) are my age -stabs self-
first thought: HOW COME I DON'T KNOW GUYS MY AGE WHO ARE LIKE THAT.
ok la or rather WHY DO I NOT KNOW ANY GUYS WHO LOOK LIKE ZAT???

ok abrupt ending BYE. I don't feel like typing anymore HEHEHEH.

BATMAN SUPERMAN ALIBABA CHICKENMAN

2011-05-14T00:16:00.000-07:00

just being bored ):

I really xinfity don't feel like studying anymore hu hu hu hu huh u.

2011-04-29T04:19:00.000-07:00

Hide me now, under your wings
Cover me, within your mighty hand
When the oceans rise and thunders roar,
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

SA1 started today but I've been sitting here forever doing useless things on the computer. Promised myself I would study later at night and I hopehopehoehopehope it comes true.

Anyway english this morning was nerve-wrecking. My fingertips were tingling before the test (= super nervous) and I think it's because I actually studied. Never studied for an English test before so I hope my English results will improve this time ): Not that I ever had an issue with my English results HEHE. but then after a few seconds I felt confident again. Prayer is powerful.

The real major major wrist breaking tests only start arnd the week after the next so I guess I still have time, but gathering is at our house tomoz so I figure I won't be studying anything tomorrow aftn and on Sunday (ukmsg gathering. hope it won't last too long ): I'm running out of timeeeee)

I can't wait for exams to be over. I still have three more of these exams before I end my secondary school life. wheeeehee.

k bye.

BUM BUM BUM

2011-04-14T00:58:00.000-07:00

(tumblr)

HI HI HI haven't seen this place in a long long nong nong long timeee.

I actually have nothing to say because my life is so unbelievably boring, but on 21st May all the boring-ness will fly away and I will become happy_gal_95.
8) 8) 8)

Exams are starting in another 2 weeks but I haven't started revising ANYTHING.
and I really want to shop even though I haz nuh moniz.

Anyway I've been a pig. On Saturday I went for careteam in the morning, came back ~12 and slept from like 2-630 and the only reason I woke up was because there was charkwayteow downstairs
... who can resist?
Lazed around on the mattress watching people play minesweeper till dinner time and then i went down to eat again.
and then after that.

I continued lazing around watching people play minesweeper. boom boom boom.
When we got bored lazing around I went down to eat 300calories worth of grapes.

and then on Sunday after church me sister liqing went to seoul yummy to eat... uh korean food. Finished a big bowl of kimchijjigae (how do i romanize this?) because...
who can resist? 8) I even helped liqing to finish her rice because uh yeah. (who can resist?)

Went mini window shopping after that before going to yami yoghurt again (gluttons) and AFTER THAT we drank gongcha (PIGS). Went over to yourwoul to give out/collect our CDs and then headed to macdonalds after that and ate fries + nuggets. Felt like I gained 90845 kg after that so decided not to have dinner BUT ended up eating leftovers at home (WHO CAN RESIST? UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH)
oh but I didn't gain anything #happygalz4eva

School has been OK. Homework hasn't though, because I'm such a pig. Especially on thursdays, which is today actually. I don't exactly treat fridays (FRIDAY FRIDAY) as school days so thursday is actually like friday to me (FRIDAY FRIDAY) and who does work on fridays? O:(FRIDAY)
Fridays are just there for me to go to school with bangs (when i let down my bangs = not gonna study) and jump around being annoying. Because we usually only have 4 lessons on Friday and a 3hour lunch break but TOMORROW WE ONLY HAVE 3 LESSONS AND A 4.5HR LUNCH BREAK OH YEAHHHH.
Gonna come home from school, take a 30 minute nap and wake up pretending it's a brand new day and I never went to school.

Oh and we had our best geog lesson ever today. Not the "reality about our meat" part but the part where we actually got to watch junior masterchef. we somehow managed to convince mr fadzly that junior masterchef is educating because it teaches us about food geography and all that rubbish and so we paedophiles got to ogle at pierre who is 12. (you know i'm kidding) but he really is handsome!!!

Didn't do anything for maths lesson either cos half the class was gone but chem lessons went on as usual... as expected.

It's been a long time since I typed so much but hehehe anyway.

(weheartit)

We had this papercrane folding interclass competition thing which almost all the sec4s were competing in (ok actually all classes are supposed to take part but most people have better things to do (:) and so I spent the past week folding cranes.. during class. and hopefully we win so 4/3 finally has something we can be proud of (hehe)

Anyway I'm starting to get really annoyed by some people which is bad bad bad bad bad because I don't like disliking people ):<
I can't stand it when I get back a test and I do badly and the person beside me goes "wah you get like that ah? then i sure fail already lor"
or
"oh my god why you get so low? I thought you very smart one!"

What?
It's even worse if they get a better score than I do and I know they secretly feel so proud inside HAHAHA.

kk byebye i love you (like being ego talking to mahself) going to watch ohmyschool 8)♥

swing like a butterfly sting like a beee~

2011-03-08T05:28:00.000-08:00

new unhealthy obsession:

the song is so nice + they are so cute 8) 8) 8) ;_;

anywayzzz today was the last day of school!
I can't even summarise what happened in term 1 cos it flew by so quickly heheh which is a REALLY good thing because it means i'll be out of anderson soon (I might regret saying this idk but anyway).

I want to go shopping ):
I want all sorts of rubbish that I can't even wear like boots and leggings and everything else ): I was actually considering going shopping by myself like the loner I am but decided not to cos my eyes were giving me problems -___-oh speaking of which I just came back from the clinic and uhhh took my... eye drops and the bitter taste is o____________o but anything to cure my eyes ;_;

My life is so unbelievably boring I can't stand it zzz.
I can't remember how to blog.

first in class but zero sense of satisfaction ZZZ. yiling got 10 for her l1r5 and she's not even close to top. I got 16 and I'm top -_-
4/3 gives false hope ):

I want to do online window shopping (LOL) but the internet is being irritating ):

aiyayayaya.

Tuao dinner on tuesday + youth fellowship + CIP during mar holidays. I really hope I have the discipline to study ):
At least I'm starting to enjoy (the thought of) studying and I NEED TO GO TO THE LIBRARYYYY.
The last time I read a book was in Australia -_-

BYEBYE
going to centris tomoz hehehehehehehehehe. D

나?

2011-03-04T20:37:00.000-08:00

62405
oh yeah~

YOU WON'T FIND HEART AND SOUL IN THE STARS

2011-02-14T07:53:00.000-08:00

I haven't really been working THAT hard but I'm still feeling pretty stressed.
Whenever I don't get something I immediately panic, some signal is sent to my brain telling me I'm stupid, I'm going to lose to everyone else, I became stupid after last year etc etc etc.

I only have 2 minutes to type this cos I HAVE to sleep at 12 or I'll die tomorrow. If you're wondering why I still have the time to do this... I don't know I just decided to spend ten minutes of my life tonight using the computer (great achievement compared to the... uhm 2 hours on avg.)

I think I messed up BOTH my english papers and nothing can save me now hur hur hur. I know it's like the most important subject but... my brain is not working properly uhm.

I've been failing EVERY. SINGLE. MATH. TEST. and I'm so disgusted with myself BUT I just can't bring myself to practise math math math math math.
I'm doing more now, definitely, but obviously not enough to get me an A. or even a B :/

but then I learnt a really really really valuable lesson today which is probably why I'm here now.

Me: I feel so stupid.
Mummy: Don't ever say that again. God would be so upset if he heard that. Of course you are not stupid.

It's at time like this I'm so grateful for mummy and for being born into a christian family because I don't know how I would survive without them.

and then the other problem with me is that I'm so competitive I disgust myself. Whenever I realise I'm praising myself just to make myself feel better it's... too late?
whatever I do now, whatever tests I study for etc is just to idk, boost my self-esteem and bring other people down. I don't even want to become the purpose of my life.
So now before I study for anything I'm going to remind myself who I'm ULTIMATELY doing this for. Definitely not for myself (ok partly. what am I talking about).

GOODNIGHT.
and happy belated valentines' day.
It was a horrible xinfinity one but I hope you had a great one (whoever you are. a zombie?)

take my hand (take my whole life too)

2011-01-30T02:36:00.001-08:00

picture stolen from sister heheheh.

kibum + kiseop's birthday gathering yesterday!
it was fun but REALLY TIRING. the food was super nice though hehe 8D 8D 8D

School has been ok~
failed 3 math tests this year alone already ): mummy has been giving me tuition every night since then but I'm starting to doubt my own ability and i'm scared I need to spend more time on maths than any other subject because I absolutely despise math.

Surprisingly though we don't have much homework HAHA.
if I'm not wrong and my brain is not failing me we only have two geog worksheets, one bio mindmap and nothing else! for the whole weekend O: oh and maths.
SEE. MY BRAIN JUST AUTOMATICALLY OMITS MATHS FROM MY MEMORY. I hate this.

but besides my sec 4 life or the rather the lack of it (I mean life. nvm) I just started watching dream high!

ok initially I thought it would be very exciting but then I started thinking it was quite boring and now it's quite ok HAHA. can't IU get pretty faster? ):

ANYWAY!

winter is here!
I'm loving singapore more because of this. even though I know in July/etc I'm going to complain how super hot and humid it is but yayayaya shubidoobi lalalala~

I hardly did any work today or yesterday ):
all I did was one geog ws and the useless stats quiz.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
homework makes me feel bad.
I'm going to watch dream high I DON'T CARE.

7AM: The usual morning lineup

2011-01-18T06:40:00.000-08:00

I haven't been here in a long time but I shall update (uh.. myself) so that I don't get a nervous breakdown or get STML because (not that i'm free but) I kind of don't feel like doing my geography essays.

I'm going to keep typing because if not I lose all my uh motivation to type in ~ 1 minute.

So...

school has been schoolish which is not very nice. I don't have time for... anything unless I decide not to do my homework (like today). I had stomach flu/food poisoning/etcetc whatever it was since idk cos i didn't go to the doctor for the past two days and my stomach felt horrible and THEREFORE I wasn't able to do any homework. tadah.

extra lessons are starting this.. thursday for 4/3 and I am not very excited. tbh we don't have THAT much homework but I think I just failed BOTH my a AND e math tests so life is not good at all.

on the bright side I think my teachers don't have anything against me (yet?) and I'm still getting sufficient sleep to last me through each day. thankfully.

this guy from halogen productions came to our school today to talk to us about leaving a legacy and making full use of our time and stuff like that and I have to say it WAS quite impactful especially w/ the video about the little guy with muscle deficiency or something like that.

with all that homework + cca + school + everything else it's really really really really hard to actually spare a thought for other people and to actually look out for them. needless to say it's not easy to make time for God. I mean not that it's difficult but you know the only time when you can really stop doing stuff and think is when you are lying in bed? that's the time and even before you start qt you'd be fast asleep. I mean myself.

ANYWAY
chinese new year is coming and despite all that shopping i did in australia i still want more (sinful).

I still can't get over how pretty heels are. T_T

Dear sec 4 life,

2011-01-06T05:35:00.000-08:00

I'm not feeling the love.

Sincerely,
tired already.

BACK BACK BACK~

2011-01-02T08:16:00.000-08:00

HI HI HI.

Just came back last night~ and I have to zoom this out because I have a whole pile of uncompleted homework larger than anyone else's.
Not forgetting homework I don't even know about -_____-

Actually it's only english but I don't HAVE my geog homework (24 qns = 600 marks -_-). Ok. This sucks quite badly.
I'm not looking forward to the first few weeks of school AHHHHHHHHHHH.

and CCA.... I'm dead. I kind of gave up the bonus 2pts already so... uhm.

I have an 80m bio test on WEDNESDAY and I haven't studied (technically I HAVE but that was two months ago. or more).

I need to go do my homework soon ;_;

Anyway when I came home yesterday I received the sweetest message I've ever received in my life :'D I'm so glad I have friends in church to rely on and loooove. 2010 was undoubtedly the best year of my life~
with chingay and u-kiss and tuao and australia.
PTL. ♥

Time really flew and I'm hoping it'll fly this year (that is if I don't slack this year)(not that I always slack)(-defensive-)

Need to cut down massively on the amount of time I spend on the computer each day -____-
At this rate I'll fail my olev......... nvm.

Ok tbh I'm quite scared.
I'm scared of my teachers mostly.
Subject teachers, CCA teachers, etcetcetc.
I'm not scared of the homework, the tests and... blabla.
Pedagophobia.

I am SO SCARED of teachers who call parents.
I get things done but most of the time not on time BUT the teachers in anderson message my parents even if I hand my homework in ONE DAY LATE.

Ok enough I'm going to die tomorrow.

First thing in the morning > height and weight.

JOYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

24-2

2010-12-20T23:58:00.000-08:00

Bye byeeee I'm off to Australia until the 2nd! ^^

Missing youth camp though ): I really wanted to go this year but at least I get to go to Aussssss hahaha.
Meeting tuao girls tomorrow again! ♥
Actually I haven't asked mummy yet but hurhur I assume. I might not be able to actly cos we're leaving tomorrow~

I'm quite excited but I keep thinking of how busy I will be next year and how much holiday homework I haven't touched and I'm all like x________x;;;;;;;

kk goodbye~

P/S: <<< check out my beyond awesome FB profile picture HAHA.

♥~

2010-12-19T00:12:00.000-08:00

I just read all my affirmation cards and ;________; the tuao people are so precious words cannot express how thankful I am for them. Like how I wouldn't still be in this fandom if not for pinkclouds, if not for these people (and of course other people in church I wouldn't be what I am now.

I'm definitely going to tuao next year.

These people will forever be an inspiration to me ♥

I miss them so much already ;_;

I'm really dreading next year but at the same time I'm rather excited?
I have this hidden love for studying buried way deep inside me (HAHA).

(I'm writing this since I won't have a chance to do it on 1st Jan kwahahahaha)

So my challenge for myself next year is to step out of my comfort zone (not totally out though, or I will fail my olevels) to get closer to more people AND of course resolve whatever friendship problems I have (actually I don't have any.... but....uh hahaha I kind of offended someone I don't even know and I don't know what to do about it hurhur). & at the same time improve my vocab (HAHA), go for careteam regularly (pls grace) and have self-discipline to do whatever I need to do.

This is like the biggest challenge I've EVER given myself in my life ~~and I have a feeling i'm gonna fail~~ I'll try my best to achieve at least half of that.

Ok scratch that biggest challenge. I'm going to say my BIGGGGGEST one now.

ace maths.

For once in 5 years I'm going to try to ace maths kwahahaha. (actually I think I said this at the beginning of this year too....hmm..)

I'm going to post my dream L1R5 here now. It might rise it might fall over the next year. but hopefully it falls (that means I feel I'm getting smarter la). This is w/o deducting bonus points (I think I can only -2 actually. Sad life.) so....

9.

I know this is a rather weird number but... still.
If I -2 I can get into AJC hahaha.
The only reason why I want to go to AJC is because people have been telling me I look and act like an AJ sort of person. BESIDES, AJ IS a good school (a mugger school)(aka school that I can fit into)(not that I'm a mugger)(nvm)

OKAYYYY.
I used to really want to go to VJ but meh I don't think I belong to that school hahaha. I'm not sure if I'm looking at the right thing now (like how I chose cedar cos the uniform was nice ._.) but I hope I am.

ANYWAY.

I'm looking forward to next year (NOT REALLY BUT I AM UGHHHHHHHHHHHH I CAN'T MAKE UP MY MIND!!!!)
It'll all be finished soon and then after Os I'll go back to Tuao to celebrate HAHAHA.

I really think too far.

Anyway I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY hope I study hard next year ;___; I'm so scareddddddddddddddddddddddd dd d d d d d d I'm actually the most worried for my english ): ): ):
I can't do compre. Ever. ZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

You know what. I can't wait to wear braces.
I know I'll probably regret saying this but NOWWW i can't wait kwahahaha.

GOODNIGHT this has been here for a really long time.

TUAO 2010 ♥

2010-12-15T19:54:00.000-08:00

Hello everybodyyyy I'm backkkkk!

I really miss Tuao though ): I miss the dirt roads, riding on the jeepney, the home visits, padi planting, gospel meetings, the people there, and definitely my team matessss ♥

Not going to do a fullll recount cos that'll be crazy. Besides I already wrote everything down in the mission booklet and I DON'T WANT TO WRITE EVERYTHING DOWN AGAIN (I know I can just copy la but I'm too lazy and nobody will read it)

Not going to post all the pictures cos that'll be crazy HAHHAHA I think we took at least 2000 pictures (I can't tell if this is an exaggeration). Anyway pictures koped from facebook from buddy and joseph so hahahah check out the albums here here & here!
Cheryl's pictures aren't up yet though she has the best camera (ahahaha).

Anyway what hit me most during the trip was really how happy the people there were. This sounds so cliche but I love how... happy they seem. Even though they wake up at 0430 everyday, most of them don't have fridges to keep food in, they don't have flushes, there's dung everywhere, their houses get destroyed by the typhoons, but they are still so happy (srsly my vocab is limited to LIDDAT ONLY), and their night sky is like *______________________*

and even with all that they are ALL so hospitable and nice AND faithful to God. So this trip really reminded me how lucky I really am (though I don't mind living there I think) and how undeserving of God's love we really are. Even though we are blessed with... uh so many things we take it all for granted (OH MAN THIS SOUNDS SO CLICHE ZZZ) so tuao really reminded me how we really have no no no no non o excuse to be unfaithful to God (ok there's never an excuse but anyway! you get me)

I'M SO THANKFUL for the team this year. Words cannot express how much I love them for being such an inspiration to me. All of them are SOOO amazing in their own ways.

I'm really glad I have YL as my buddy tooo cos she has taught me SOO much (that it goes from the EAST~ to the WEST~). Ok speaking of VBS... I really miss doing my Friends For Sale skit ): and I RLY WANT TO MAKE A MUSICAL WITH IT HAHAHAHA.
We WILL. one fine day.

Anyway buddy pictures!

Of course we have many more la but this is my favourite... series HAHA.

and my room mates! I really like our nightly conversations and confessions ♥ *wiggles eyebrows* hahahaaha.

and uhm -clarification- we didn't stay in a nice suite during the whole trip as seen in the pictures ok! that was only the last night when we were in Tuguegarao CITY. Hahahaha.

MY FAVOURITE BOYS:

and group photo w/ Taribubu COC ♥

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Ok end of trip!

Papa and gerald kor2 came to fetch me from the airporttt and then we went to eat kwaychap!

and yesterday I met the fantuaobulous toowow people again for dinner & movie :D :D :D :D
Had dinner at burger king before watching........

Best movie ever srsly. The length of it is PERFECT (I cannot last through long movies hahaha) and not forgetting the storyline and graphics and THE SONGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SUPER GOOD SONGS I LOVOOOOOOVVVVVVVEEEEEEE.
Hahahahaha.

Had supper after that at the food court before heading home~

Bye guyssssss I love you all ♥

I'LL FOLLOW YOU INTO THE DARK

2010-12-02T23:23:00.000-08:00

Heyyyy~

I'll be leaving home + sg in about 6 hours and I still feel kinda sick ):

I'm going to miss the cat lying on my lap right now ):

Missed QT for like the past 3 days which is REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY BAD.
and I haven't started on my homework (not that I had the time to) which is ALSO REALLY BAD.

but I have to say my life is pretty awesome right now and I'm excited for the trip kwahahaha.
I can't wait to spend 10 whole days with awesome people (ok this sounds so sarcastic but it's not. really.) and though the lariam tablets may try to kill me everything else will make up for it ♥
OHYEHAHHHHH.

PLUS I have a FANTUAOBULOUS buddy HAHAH.

I've yet to start on my christmas card but I don't think that's going to take too long?
OK EVERYBODY I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME.

(* this is the end of my yay happy-go-lucky i'm so fortunate part of the post
----------------------------)

but I'm not gonna complain since it's one of the rules of the trip and i'm. going. to. stick. to. it.
I mean. try.

YAY I'm done with my notes for devotion. Wrote everything with a pink glittery pen cos I was feeling... gay.

I still need to use my brain for home bible study but.. I think i'm doing that when I'm there haha I'm... dying.

HAHA.
My throat is kind of dying I really hope I can sing for tuao ):
I WANT TO SINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

ok I just tried singing Breathe and I sound like a suffocating duck.
:/

Going to finish up my packing + homestay gift, christmas card etcetcetcetc lalalalalallaala yeahhhhhhhhhh.

I hope I don't forget anythingg.

♥

2010-11-28T05:09:00.000-08:00

via

Came back from lunch @ vivo a few hours earlier!
I don't really know why I'm here but ANYWAY.

I have so many things to do tonight T_T I actly thought of sleeping early but I still have VBS stuff to cut AND I TOTALLY FORGOT.
Shouldn't have started packing yet.

Anywayzzz I managed to find the harmonization for At The Beginning YEAHHHHHHHH.

Church in the morning and tuao team presentation @ 11!
Our singing was fine (: we may have gone off-key but kwahahaha I STILL LOVE EVERYBODY HAHAHA.
ok I think I sang too loudly nvm.

Went out for lunch with people at vivo and finally decided on what to buy for the homestay~

I feel like we did a million things lol but I can't think of anything ANYWAY

bye gonna cut stuff.
I DON'T FEEL LIKE CUTTING T__________________________________T

i'mk going to wake up tomorrow to cut.
I WILL.

gnight.

ㅋㅂㅅㅇㅊㅎㅎ ♥

2010-11-24T20:18:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEVIN ilusm.

I'm so sorry for ever thinking you were fake T_T even though you don't know about it but still T_T~~~~
Thank you for all the joy and encouragement you gave us ♥

We'll make sure your many next birthday presents will make you as happy as you were this time ♥

I don't regret using twice as much money as we did to buy dongho's birthday present to buy yours. KWAHAHA.

LUBYU 푸르에버 ㅋㅂ우ㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜㅜ~ ♥

BOP BOP BOP

2010-11-24T00:51:00.000-08:00

Heyyyyyy I'm almost at my 30th post.
This blog has existed for 5 months. which means I have 6 posts per month.
Woah.

That is so much more than I thought.

Anyway I'm just here to talk to myself again (eh my fan account attracted quite a lot of attention but today only like 1 person (aka myself) came). oh yeahhhh.
I'm supposed to be working rn! Ok, work ends in about 7 minutes. I typed out 7 stacks already I don't want to type anymore nanananana~

WHYYY does my internet keep on running away?

Look at my new facebook DP! I think it's so nice and colourful and artistic~~~ laaaa.(<---- this = soohyun english)(so cute la~~~ beautiful la~~~)(cr: hyunniebb2 hehe)

I LOVE YOU ALL ♥

Can't wait to go to Australia and shop till I die ♥_♥

Got to go for tuao prac later soooo I can't go and drink papaya soup later with the people ): I want to try papaya soup! Everyone's talking about it booooo.
but nvm hahaha I'm sure tuao will be fun.

bye.

abrupt endings forever hehe.

U-KISS NOV 2010

2010-11-20T21:11:00.000-08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY(or rather myself) I'M BACK.

This is going to be one long fan account with more of my own feelings rather than U-KISS, but don't worry (: the bad feelings have faded away away away. Ok, maybe not so long ANYWAY.

There will not be any pictures because (quote sue), we are the only ones who went and came out without A SINGLE PICTURE. Y? cos they're all imprinted in our ♥s".
& I'm too lazy to kope pictures from people.

ANYWAY.
18th November

Rushed around amk hub buying fruits for U-KISS with melody. Bought the cooler bag and a million pretty fruits and shoong shoong-ed to the airport.

Reached there and I was the only one, got a few angry texts from fans who had not collected the tickets although there were like 3 days of collection before that. They must have been really busy (trying very hard to sound sarcastic and not sarcastic at the same time) BUT I was unable to pass them any tickets because ant wasn't there yet.
(the fan wrote a really long essay about us. here)

Speechless.
Please pay me @ $0.05/min if you want the full rant.
Ok it's really our fault if she doesn't use twitter or something cos we only replied her email 7 days later.

ANYWAY.
zzz now I don't feel like typing anything more -___-;

Went to put stuff in their van and got stabbed in the chest when we saw other fan gifts in there when they promised us... NVM I'M NOT BOTHERED. Anymore.

Rushed like crazy, dumped the BOOKS into some random ugly plastic bag ): and we are not even sure it got to them. I will punch someone (probably the only person I can punch is myself) if we find out the books didn't even touch the boys.

Fruits probably spoiled in that heat, chocolate melted, blablabla but that's only one small part of the whole thing.
We went to through worse worse worse worse worse.

Anyway, went into the van even before U-KISS came out cos we didn't even feel much excitement due to all the rushing here there everywhere, worrying if the books would get to them, if my fruits would spoil, if we labelled our stuff.

They came out a while later and the van uncle was totally late in catching them but lol CBB ZZZ.
Reached their... resort and didn't even get out of the van cos... refer to above quite invalid reason.
Anyway we managed to get them at the corridor thing where there were 0 fans.

So I ended up waving the official banner upside down while kneeling at the door of the van. With the door open.
Imagine how awkward I felt. and looked.
Alexander saw us and waved, kiseop waved his phone and eli just looked curious.
I only saw Alexander though there's something wrong with me.

Went to NTU to fetch sister and then SIM to fetch sue and then zoomed to bedok reservoir to drop cordelia and sister and rushed to the airport to fetch dongho + kibum.

Let's just say...
everyone was more mesmerized by shimbujang than the boys. I wasn't. Was trying to reflect light into dongho's sunglasses using my board-that-saves-my-life-every-single-time.
I totally wanted to stick the board in his face and whack his head (jk) but I refused to be a zombie I ended up trying to reflect light. Using a black un-shiny board.
and SO, I missed shimbujang.

I like shinmunsung so much better though *wiggles eyebrows*

*wiggle wiggle wiggle wiggle wiggle forever*
I'm so glad we got recognition from him.
I think if you add up the rankings shinmunsung is NUMBER ONE.
Okay, maybe Kevin. I will elaborate later and I am going to explode when I do.

Nothing much happened after that lol,
went to watch their rehearsal, got mud in my shoes!!!11!!!!!1 -_-
Went to dempsey to sing to ourselves and then to their resort again.
We did such an embarrassing and (almost) disgusting thing I wish I could turn back time and erase it all away ): ): ):

Went back to centris, ate instant noodles like the pig I am and went to sleep (like the pig I am).

19 November

Woke up at 730? Left the house at 830, had to rush here and there again cos we forgot to bring Kevin's message book from the Thai Kiss Me!
Was lugging his guitar all over the place and when we reached there we still had to give out tickets.
Liqing and Cordelia came with the cake + unbinded msg books, so we had to go to Daiso.
Bought pretty ponchos and an ugly box to put his msg pages LOL but aiya cbb alreadyyyyy.

Had to rush down to garden plaza thus depriving 1/2 of pinkclouds of pangsai-ing.
OOP.

Fanmeet was SO FUN.
Ok not rly.
I couldn't see and the security guard wouldn't allow me to stand on the leg? of the railing to see them although the whole world was and I was right at the back.
All of us did anyway.
We were right at the back! Show some mercy please. My height plus ten railing legs can't even add up to yours ):

I feel very weird for saying this but this is supposed to be a fan account right.

When U-KISS walked in most of them already spotted ukissmeSG so they kind of knew we were at the back. and they know we are not going to squeeze to the front because we relak liddat lah.

So being the curious boy going through adolescence (srsly), Dongho started looking for his fanboards?
I don't know haha if he did stuff to his other fans too xD
but according to tiffany & co. (hey this sounds nice. and familiar) he looked at my board and mouthed "62405". when I wasn't looking. OH JOY.

Anyway sister started being retarded behind me and pointing at me like crazy (I only found out after everything) and dongho did this scrunched up nose thing at... me? I TOLD YOU THIS SOUNDS SO WEIRD.
Please don't believe me.
I can say these things so well in RL (I think too well) but I'm so scared to say it on the internet T_T

Nothing much happened after that.
OH.
[b]SISTER wrote on a piece of paper asking Eli to pose for Kuro and ANT held the camera and SUE held the piece of paper![/b] He didn't really actly but he stared at the camera with a tiny smile.
After that Kibum saw and was like poking Eli and waving and waving and waving AND NO OTHER PINKCLOUD SAW IT HUH HUH.
I had to deal with these two guys who were waving and waving and I was like... are they waving at us? *look back look back look back* *pokes sue* "DID YOU SEE WHAT KIBUM WAS DOING???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Waited till we were one of the last before going up stage to get their autographs.

This is what went on:

Dongho: 시끄러!!!!!! ^^x393484
Me: hahahahahahahahahaha *puts album in front of him*
Me: do you like the book? eh no wait you won't understand me *turns to alexander* DO YOU LIKE THE BOOK.
-ignored-
Dongho: GRAAACE~ ^^
Me: Hahahahahahahahhaah thank you~~

Now that I typed it out it seems uh...
Anyway I think he said every fan's name so I don't need to be so happy about this haha.

I don't even want to talk about the rest of the time.

Went to eat at Chang's @ Iluma lol we hardly even looked at the boys despite the waiter giving us a table with almost perfect view from the back door.
SHIN MUN SUNG ♥♥♥♥

OHO HOHOHOHOHOH.
We celebrated Kevin's birthday onstage but it lasted like 2 minutes I think -_-
before that SMSmanager was like "시끄러! 시끄러ㅓㅓ~" He's the best.
Then when we were waiting to go upstage for the fansign he did it again.
and we sang TALK TO ME to him and he was like "^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ 시끄러!!! ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^"
아임 소 쏘뤼 멘 I had to put the gay smileys because SMSmanager has the best eye smile out of all the U-KISS members.

OH WAIT HE'S NOT A U-KISS MEMBER.
I mean. compared to the U-KISS members.

Talk about Kevin now.
TBH I Kevin was my no. 1 when I first knew U-KISS then it somehow switched to Dongho, and before this he was superglued to the bottom cos I thought he was fake and all, but srsly Kevin...

On the 18th he was waving only to us (cos we were the only ones on that side of the van HAHA) in the van but we thought it was only normal cos he is KEVIN. the KEVIN who waves at every single fan.
but then during the fansign after we gave him the guitar he was waving and waving and waving.
He is the ONLY ONE who was ever so obvious before.
and then when sue went up Kevin totally ignored the fan in front of him and talked to sue.
my heart piang piang piang piang piang piang piang I felt like giving him a big hug an apologising for not liking him.

He carries the guitar EVERYWHERE he goes I LOVE HIM SO MUCH SRSLY.

Back to lunch.

SMSmngr saw us eating at Chang's and he did his *WIGGLES EYEBROWS* thing.
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH TOO MUAHAHAHA.

Anyway there were fangirls running arnd the restaurant sticking their faces to the glass window and giggling and screaming and then after that they started to like keep the straws and drinks cans? or something like that.
Went to buy KOI and went to bedok reservoir.

Was FARRR from the boys hahahah and we missed 1/2 of all their performances -____-
I'm over it I'm not gonna talk about it haha.

I said it before and I'm gonna say it (or rather sing) again.
THE WORLD MAY CHANGE MY WHOLE LIFE THROUGH BUT NOTHING'S GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU.
Throughout the whole two days I kept telling myself no matter how shitty the organizers are going to be, no matter how annoying NHM is going to be, no matter how much the boys ignore us, I'm going to support them all the way.
I don't think any part of the admins regret setting up UKISSMESG.
We WILL NOT collapse EVER even if it means getting our hopes crushed a million times and getting empty promises.

What doesn't kill us only makes us stronger.

If you want to spread inaccurate facts about ukissmeSG like you already are, we are not going to stop you. Just know we have our LIVES too and the world doesn't revolve around YOU.

but hahah whatever it is, there are good things that happened.
we got recognition from the boys and SMSmngr (omg loving forever), we all grew closer (as in Kiss Me) and of course, our love for the boys only grew stronger ♥

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

그만사라져~ 이제디써펼.

2010-11-14T06:17:00.000-08:00

SO TIRED even though I just slept for like 4 hours ):

and D-4 WHAT ON EARTH? time flies too quickly but at the same time I can't waitttt either.
I need to rush the singlish pages out but I'm procrastinating like... how I usually do.

OK LET'S GO.
Motivation needs to hit me like it never hit anything else before right now cos my brain is fried from one whole year of school.
Not forgetting I have CCA AND extra extra lessons tomorrow.

ukissmeSG has been facing unreasonable haters who failed to sell as many tickets as us, created their own fanclub to get privileges (so obvious) despite knowing that ukissmeSG reigns (LOLOLOL).
Ok it's only two of them vs. the 1000s of us so... it's quite entertaining to watch them complain and try to hate in secret. But being U-KISS fans has helped up to excel in stalking people so they can't hide it.
WWW is truly WWW.

Anyway BBQ ytd was awesomez hehe.

Actly I didn't do anything but eat and sit on the.. thing and be a pig but that's ok.
HAHA. but tuao people are such an... inspiration hahaha.

I will never have enough inspiration to blog for more than 5 minutes.
I feel like sleeping but rn I'm dying and I need to complete the book pages.
and I'm not even thinking properly lalala.

WHAT SHOULD I DO?

I don't feel like doing the pages AGHHHHH.

bye bye searching for motivation.

I believe in you.

2010-11-09T02:21:00.000-08:00

Just because I felt like coming here to talk about the boring things that are currently happening in my life.
Who ever reads this anyway T_T

It was only a while ago when I was screaming D-17 D-17!
but now we only have nine more days before the boys step into this island.

clicknetworktv is holding this competition thingy and the 3 winners are going to be able to interview u-kiss personally.
honestly, I want to win this but if I do I don't have anything to ask besides hello, hello, do you know me? this is grace present.
LOL ok slapping self hard now.

chinese olvls are tomorrow!
I actually feel more prepared than I've ever had for any exam.
I'm all ready to tackle my 3.5 hours of exam.
If I had been this prepared when I took my oral and listening comprehension I might just have confidence to ace chinese -____-
but don't talk about oral -_-

I have no idea what's going to happen when U-KISS comes.
Either something very good is going to happen, or something bad is going to happen LOL. (by bad I mean nothing's gonna happen hehe)

I'm SO SCARED of seeing dongho.
then again I can't wait to see him -__-

THURSDAY THURSDAY THURSDAY.
Please come soon ):
Today was such a long long long day (ok actl i feel that it passed like whoosh)

Tomorrow I will COME HOME FROM SCHOOL and SLEEP all the way.
then on Thursday I will go to school the happiest girl (I just rmbed I made a resolution to be happy during our INTENSIVE REVISION period (aka now -_____-?)),
come home and use the computer and then go out for dinner? oh yeah oh yeah?
AGM yo.

I really can't wait for thursday.

bye now off to hunt for entry proof and chinese dictionary zzz.

U-KISS VOL. 2.... soon ^^

2010-10-31T09:34:00.000-07:00

U C that baby~~~~

2010's almost over!! This has been the most enjoyable and eventful (IN A VERY GOOD WAY) year of my life and HOPEFULLY 2011 will be more eventful (in a better way). Even with OLEVELS.

Actually not so eventful but there's DEFINITELY an event that happened this year which I will remember 4lyfeeverybady.
which is also the event resulted in the creation of this blog that only I read 8)

Anyway!
Whenever I see someone's facebook name like

Jonghyun's AhLiian

or something like that I want to laugh.

Ok evil evil change subject.

I think I've been offending too many people lately so I decided to seclude myself from the ugly world aka facebook for a while and ended up being wrongly accused T____T
I was actually quite bothered by it and wanted to do something about it but I'm such a lazy coward I'm going to ignore.
What grace is best at doing.

2010 has been the best year I can remember because NOTHING BAD that I can think of happened. Actually there was but that was like right in the beginning of the year so I shall treat that as a last year thing. ♥
and then came June and my life was almost made complete by U-KISS.
I can't say they made it complete because they are going to come again on nov 19 and make it more complete.

8D

We have a million projects going on @ ukissme.SG!
and our book cover is awesomer than ever.

Anyway I'm going to declare war with my fate (ok direct translation from some cheem chinese thing) and ENJOY my extra lessons.
Onlu 5 days! OF COURSE I WILL BE HAPPY.
Once chinese olvls are done I will be FREE LIKE A BIRDY CHIRP CHIRP.

and then 19TH NOVEMBER WILL COME and muahhahahahaha.

There's something terribly wrong going on in my mind rn.
I really want to go shopping! but I think I need to sacrifice FOR U-KISS.

yigeliangge all for u-kiss I be telling you like teh hongkong man (sorry inside joke)

I'm so happy now I... feel like sleeping. or eating. whichever is more enjoyable. I can't decide.

WHEEEEEEEEEEE BYEBYEEEEEEEE.

I now can sing a brand new song.

2010-10-17T01:27:00.000-07:00

I AM SO SAD RN.
I hope this all passes I hate feeling like this ): Why do I get my hopes up higher each time? Maybe it's because I am never disappointed but today... I don't know ): D: ): Now this is going to stay in my mind for.. ever until something miraculous happens. I hope I don't need to wait too long for that. Maybe there just wasn't enough time/opportunities today. What is this feeling?

At least I got a ride home.

2010-10-15T07:46:00.001-07:00

BREAKTIME.

2010-10-11T06:27:00.000-07:00

let's just say it takes away whatever exam stress I'm having.

:/

2010-10-10T08:04:00.000-07:00

facebook is a dirty dirty place.

I'm not touching it until 15 december.
and that is only when I come back from tuao because I want pictures.

for now I am invisible.

I can't fight this feeling anymore

2010-09-12T07:58:00.000-07:00

And even as I wander, I'm keeping you in sight.
You're a candle in the window, on a cold, dark winter's night.

Quick post on sept holidays before qt!

This week has been really.. not productive. Ok that's what I feel? Although I think I probably did more work than most people. I didn't study study at all. and I think I have a bio test this week. oknvm.

Monday... was okay I guess. Went to school really moody :/ cos we had school until 4. during holidays. Boo. LOL anyway I managed to make myself happy (because I am Grace) during geography although the lesson was uh hehhe.

Didn't do ANYTHING on tuesday because I wanted a break I guess? LOL OKAY GRACE RUBBISH. I was lazy to do anything.
I think I just sat in front of the TV and the computer and wasted my whole life away.

I feel like I did a lot on wed and thurs but actly I only completed like two maths papers over the two days.
Maybe because I did the papers in front of the tv *cough*

Friday and Saturday were probably the best days of my holiday.

Careteam in the morning! We randomly took pictures again. I don't even know why we are so random. and we ate youtiao 8) and started on our new series! I think it's much better than bible study hahaha.

Macs for lunch by yanggin/lin 's mom hweehweehwee ♥
I was so full of cheeseburger after that.

Got a lift to joseph's house for tuao prac/sleepover.

We did ... usual stuff hahahahaha.

I wanted to do work when everyone else was playing games but nobody else was doing work I... uh :B
Wanted to do work again after bathing but nobody else was doing work AGAIANANANAD so I just went to sleep.

OHHHHHHH I got jabbed on both arms. I think I am fearless now. oknvm.

Woke up at like 0430 and stared at the other three sleeping. I couldn't get back to sleep ):
Washed up at like.. 6 LOL. and then while the rest were washing up at 7+ I fell asleep.
Why am I so amazing?

Went down for breakkkkfast and.. ate a lot of grapes.

Ok haha I'm getting very impatient with myself now I don't feel like typing.

Started on the suaku skit and ok la I have to admit I'm quite suaku (I just found out the meaning of suaku like.. on that day) although I cannot act for nuts.
My face was like :B/:P/c): during the whole thing.
It was kind of traumatising actually HAHA zzzzzzzzz.

anywayzzzzz glady's mom sent me all the way to the guard house 8)
so I didn't need to train home all the way from COMMONWEALTH.

Singapore is really huge.

Slacked all the way to 4 and went to qisu's house and ate a mountain.

Did another math paper.

Went to church this morning!
I love church haha.
It's so peaceful and happy in church.
Look at that man I keep talking like a mentally retarded person.

Lunch and then homeeee and did my chem paper which almost killed me.

Dinner at gimtim restaurant or something. I REALLY DON'T FEEL LIKE TYPING HOOHOOOHOOHOHOHOOOO.

back back back. finished my english news report thing.
I still have a like another whole paper to do but grace is really lazy now.
but I'm going to finish it still.
because grace is really cool now. (AGHGHGUHUHUGHGUHGGHGHGHH cannot stand self)

I actually like the fact that I'm practically the only one who reads this blog. Reading my own blog makes me smile. I only log good memories in here so it makes me happy.

Anywayyyyy I'm currently very happy and confused, which makes me look like a... retarded kid (I'm so sick of the word retarded seriously. but it's almost the only word to describe myself rn).

but life is good (:

080910

2010-09-07T10:41:00.000-07:00

I realised something today.

and I'm going to work REALLY hard to achieve it.

Stop stuffing your head so full of thoughts about winning other people, grace.

It's not going to get you anywhere.

제빵왕 김탁구

2010-09-06T07:07:00.000-07:00

This. This show is taking my life away LOLOLOL.
Everyday since saturday I have spent HOURS AND HOURS AND HOURS watching this. and even though it's so uh, mind boggling it's sooo addictive.

It makes me cry too.
I had to go to school with puffy eyes today because of this drama. I even got a headache from trying to keep my swollen eyes as big as they normally are (which isn't very big also cough cough cough)

But it makes me want to have a friend like 김탁구 so much ):
He smiles at every single hardship he faces in life, he doesn't hate and he's so loyal and patient.

I should start being like him before I expect anyone to be like him.

random rambling for myself to read.

My holidays haven't started yet and they aren't going to start this term. I guess I just have to RENNNNNNNNN until EOYs are over and then I have a two month long break. but then of course I also have olvls next year.

LIFE IS SO BEAUTIFUL.
made to suffer made to suffer made to suffer made to suffer.

You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled by men. You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven. - Matthew 5:13-16

2010-09-02T07:10:00.000-07:00

cr: as tagged

6A0sevenzzz.

2010-09-01T00:33:00.000-07:00

... this is a very NOT fruitful holiday.
Or "long holiday" as mrs poh calls it.
I am looking forward to the longest holiday ever next week.
-_- ):

6A + 1 6B gathering yesterday!

Considering how much I don't really like my class now, 6A makes me miss primary school sososososossoo much. Even though we are all in different schools now, we're all still the same ♥

When we started talking about how we made teachers cry (ok nothing to be proud off), how we threw paper balls all over the classroom, everybody's nicknames etc etcetc, I suddenly missed being in the same classroom and having lessons with these super smart but super cool people ):

6A people are the only people I can go out with and spend SOOOOOO much money without feeling because we only get to meet like twice a year ): (smart people are busy people *COUGH*)

anw yesterday was really fun! we do the same things every single time but it will always be fun.

Step Up 3D first, which was SUPER GOOD hahha.
when beggin' came on I was like smiling to myself.

I know 0 about dance so I obviously found the dances good. I always found cinemas uncomfortable idky -_- I was like sliding up and down my chair.
OH AND they gave me spoilt 3D glasses and refused to change them for me ): me and joey were like arguing with the man, then when I surrendered and accepted the fact that I just had to watch a green show this other guy went up and complained that everything was green too. HAHA.

Anyway I didn't watch a green show.

Went for dinner at Thai Express after that. Again.
I hope this isn't going to be a 6A+16B tradition because the food there is amazingly overpriced.

but we had so much fun (we probably annoyed a lot of people) I can't even remember how my tomyam tasted like.

Ok this were the people who were there for the whole dinner at least. The rest kind of.. disappeared during dinner and janice went back ):

Went to the playground place where we took a million pictures the previous time! It's officially the place where we collect all our memories and store them in... facebook.

Before we moved on to the group shots.
We were sitting in this weird circle talking about everything under the sun. Or moon. In this case.

I always seem to have pictures like these.

Group shots!
I srsly think our class is the only class that has boys who actually like taking pictures. They act all shy and girly when someone suddenly whips out a camera right in their faces but they will take a million group shots if you ask them to. HAHAHA.

See me no? I am behind claudia -_-

Girlz girls girls.

Shy boiiz. They had so much fun taking this! lolololol.

A for 6A!

Sorry for the ridiculous face. I was LOLing at something.

Look at our pretty staircase-to-foodjunction that we use all the time to take pictures LOL. Chermaine Joey and I tried to trick them TWICE but failed. TWICE. so they got -_-? and came down HAHAHA. This is according to height.
Shortest highest.

But I think hanying is lying.

~~... imageshack hurry up.~~
zzzz omg seriously it all failed to upload -_-
I'm all ready to strangle yellow frog now.

OH YAY.

TWINZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

I hate talking to shenyang because he owns me in every single thing I say. (then again many people do. I r just keyboard warrior galz) I hope he doesn't see or his ego will soar.

I'm done my head belly painful nowz cuz imageshack berry irritatingeth.

BWE!

2010-08-29T04:20:00.001-07:00

= Best Weekend Ever

This weekend has been the most fruitful weekend in my life ♥

Did flag day yesterday. Honestly, at the beginning I was totally zzzzzzz about it because I absolutely hate doing CIP (as much as I would like to love it) but yesterday TOTALLY changed my impression of flag day cos *cough* my can was heavy! Of course not compared to Janelleeeee :/ but it's the heaviest can I've ever collected! (ok I don't know how to phrase this lah. I didn't collect cans. I collected money. You know what I'm talking about).

I think it's mainly because I actly opened my mouth to talk to people? I think saying 'Thank You' to them even if they don't donate makes them feel guilty cos a LOT of them walked back to give money hahahahahaha *wiggles eyebrows*

I can see myself doing more flag days now wheeeee.

/EDIT

I kind of have a humongous butt. Or I look like I do here.

Todayyyyy was fun hahahaha.
I like singing hehe 8D although I don't do it very well but it makes me happy! ok I cannot stand myself anymore I'm so.. gay? I want to slap myself.

Church and then tuao prac! Nothing much but hahhaha it feels good to be in church for ~10 hours. I like the smell of church 8)

BUT CHURCH IS SO FARRRRR AWAY FROM HOMEEEEEEEEE but I'll never change churches because PP whooooooo.

Fat fat fat drama on Thursday that made me realize how... significant? (man my vocab suckzzz -_-) extra lessons are. LET'S PHRASE IT ANOTHER WAY. Made me realize that our teachers are really much more tired than we are and how we should totally make an effort to show that we appreciate them.
I really hope what happened on thursday has some benefits though.
I'm not going to say so much here lol it's not for the world to know -_-

LOTS of people are complaining of stress when Term 3 is practically over, we hardly have any homework, EOYs are still 4 weeks away and they obviously hasn't started, Grace finally has her pen refills (out of point) AND the teachers are obviously more stressed than us.

WHY. LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.

*slaps self again*

I've been saying this to too many people they think I'm saying it to console myself.

but srsly what's there to be so stressed about! (OKAY FINE SELF CONSOLATION) I always tell myself if I'm stressed now, what's going to happen in sec4, in JC, university, and when I finally go out to the uhm... real world to work. (ok la hopefully I get into all of that -_-)

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.

Iylia: Graaaaaace I'm so tired of life.
Me: WHY! LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL!
Iylia:

seriously?

sorrrrrry no pictures. I need to uh start taking pictures to make this space more interesting.... for myself to read and stop stealing pretty pictures from weheartit 8)

emo.

2010-08-19T06:38:00.000-07:00

Me: I don't understand emo people!
Jacelyn: Ya!!! I don't get why they are so emo.
Me: I mean, come on, look! Life is so beautiful!
Jacelyn: ....................

-Math lesson continues-

tirrr-

2010-08-18T15:19:00.000-07:00

"That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:10

This week is a REALLY tiring week cos we have chem + geog + maths + extra lessons + CCA, but it will all be over soon so hehehe.

When this week is over I will enjoy myself ttm on saturday!
careteam in the morning, tuao prac in the afternoon and JAESON MA WHOOOOOOHOOHOHOHOHOHOHOOHO IN THE EVENING YAY.
Go read his blog if you haven't he's so amazing hahahaha. (plus he's *cough*good*cough*looking*cough* too :B)

My life is so excitingszzzzz. I think.

Is God cheating you?

2010-08-11T09:41:00.000-07:00

Now the serpent was more crafty than any of the wild animals the LORD God had made. He said to the woman, “Did God really say, ‘You must not eat from any tree in the garden’?” - Genesis 3:1

Go ahead. Admit it. You’ve been cheated. Here you are, doing everything right. You don’t smoke, you don’t chew, and you don’t go out with those who do. You read your Bible and pray every day. You respect your parents. You don’t park in the handicapped parking spaces. You get your papers in on time. You never try to sneak into home basketball games without paying.

Yet the good-looking fellow student you want to date won’t even glance your way. Students who don’t care about the rules get in good with the right people. And cheaters continue to get away with it.

When this kind of scenario happens, some thoughts could start to creep into your mind. Thoughts that lead you to wonder why God is treating you this way. After all, you’re one of His children. Shouldn’t He be smoothing the way for you?

Your thoughts could begin to take on the character of the questions Satan asked Eve in the Garden of Eden. After God had created the greatest environment anyone could imagine for Adam and his wife Eve, He grave them one restriction. He told them to steer clear of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.

That’s all Satan needed to hear. He started whispering in Eve’s ear that God was cheating her. “Did God really say?” he asked, and proceeded to twist what God said.

Satan is still twisting. He’ll make you think that if everything is not going your way, then God doesn’t care for you. Yet God’s Word makes it clear that we will have trouble. In fact, that trouble could be a sign of God’s care, for He is helping us grow stronger through the trial.

Feeling cheated? Don’t listen to the enemy. Whether good things happen or bad, trust God with your life. - Dave Branon

POLYVORE.

2010-08-09T08:18:00.000-07:00

I actually heard of polyvore a long long time ago but I never ever really visited it before hehe.

Anyway went there a few days back and... you know.
Each outfit here costs like a few 100 dollars LOL.
everything here is something that I would wear if I had so yeah hehe there's no singlet without a jacket (besides the last one because I was rushing) because I don't wear sleeveless stuff for obvious reasons. As for the heels.

Feel free to insult my fashion sense.

I wanted to wear something like that for national day celebration in school (MINUS THE HEELS BUT LOAFERS and the shirt but with red stripes) but I had NDP and was all sweaty and smelly so I ended up just wearing my UKISSME.SG shirt heheh xD that and the fact that people in school think I wear pyjamas everywhere I go.

remember the time I just wore a DENIM SKIRT. DENIM. SKIRT. and they all went crazy -_- because "Grace is (was) wearing a skirt".

LOL ^ this was super rushed because I saw the hello kitty dr. martens and got too excited.

HAHA.

This is so random LOL.

and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! ♥

the heavenlies

2010-08-01T05:24:00.000-07:00

My mood is currently like v^v^v^v^v^v^v^v^v????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!@#$%^&*(

I feel so... unaccomplished I don't know *shrugs*
maybe it's because I have uncompleted, impossible-to-complete-within-a-night geography homework lying next to me THAT is going to be counted in my CA2, AND if I don't hand it in by tomorrow, marked and corrected and DONE, I will have like TEN marks less.
O________________________________O;;;;;;;

I'm so irritated with myself I hope you can tell.

and maybe I'm feeling this way because of what happened in the afternoon during CIP which was. not. very. pleasant. I srsly regret even going but the thought that at least I tried to serve the community makes everything a little bit better.

I can't get over this stupid geography thing that I kept procrastinating on. SEE LA GRACE. Now you better study like sdkfhldkjfhsdjkh for your test and... get full marks or something. If you get anything below a B3 you are going to ssanti in the middle of Orchard rd. Ok kidding I don't know what's wrong with me.

Not enough sleep I think.
Especially me.

.... geography.

NVM.

Church today was rather meaningful. Both the sermon and bible class. I like short(er) sermons like today's heheh.

and

Happy birthday Olivia! ♥

I hope you liked your cakie cakie hehehe.

See moodswings. I feel like a happy butterfly now.

GOODNIGHT.
I'm sleepy.

yo.

God bless!

I'm going to start this week right. and end it right too. I'm going to need a LOT of self discipline cos somehow I don't even know why how why what how why I can just suddenly explode with joy/anger and I say all sorts of mean sarcastic things to people (as usual. being grace.)

vroom to bed.

Day 1 of trying to be nice and happy

2010-07-26T07:08:00.000-07:00

failed like nobody's business LOL seriously :/

Me: Hi Hui En. Are you experiencing any hardships in life? I can encourage you.
Hui En: Why are you so weird?
Me: I'm just being nice!
Hui En: ..........I need more time.
Me: Why do you need more time?
Hui En: I'm tired.
Me: You should sleep more!
Hui En: I sleep a lot already!
Me: THAT'S why you don't have time.

... you see.

and during CCA I was being annoying. I really need to stop teasing Hannah and shut up already LOL.

Anyway cotton on is starting to sell REALLY nice but REALLY expensive clothes and it makes me feel sad.
No no no no no non on on ono nononono.

on the other hand I msged a few people and mended a few relationships.
It's almost impossible for me to do this in real life :/ I express myself so much better through the computer/my handphone.

Message someone everyday! (: the replies really make you feel good. and it will definitely make the person receiving it feel better too.

Have a blessed week!

18:1

2010-07-25T10:06:00.000-07:00

weheartit

I've been reading jaeson ma's blog recently and it's pretty addictive. I never really bothered about this guy.... even after seeing his amazing "365 days of love" videos and this song:

His blog is REALLY inspirational but at the same time it makes you feel sad. Like Olivia once said, it's really sad to see how other people have such strong faith and are walking so closely to God compared to yourself.

I know I haven't been doing QT consistently and stuff. I always pray that I will have the discipline to do so and be more christ-like in my daily life but plainly praying isn't going to get me anywhere if I don't do anything. Obviously... I won't like automatically become a good person the moment I pray. If that were the case the world would be filled with good people (ok maybe not).

I've had these moments before but after a while I just totally forget about them and continue being my annoying self. After every few weeks I always go "ok. I will be nice" but then after that I just totally forget again.

It's REALLY hard to be a nice person. It takes a loooooot. You can't really display your emotions whenever you feel like it and I admit I've been doing that... every friday. Whenever CCA starts my mood just goes BAM and I become a whiny little brat you hates everybody. I really get angry for nothing during CCA.

I always do the close-eyes-count-to-ten thing and it helps, but sometimes I just don't feel like cooling down. Like... uh... you know the feeling when you just feel like making everyone feel as bad as you? Yeah.

I'm going to on the tuao mission trip at the end of the year! hopefully it'll strengthen my faith and let me realise like REALLY realise what a spoilt kid I am. I was quite hesitant about it though, considering I haven't been on any of these. I was considering between china and tuao, but even though in china we have winter and a hotel it doesn't matter? It lies on which one is better for me and the people we are helping I guess.

The preparation is gonna take up pretty much of my time and I'm already.. not very relaxed but I can definitely handle this. God will help me.

On another note, I SHOULDN'T BE STRESSED AT THIS AGE WHY AM I EVEN STRESSED? I am not. I'm starting to think I set my standards too high. I am srsly SO AFRAID of Olvls ok. Actually... not really. but I must make sure I try my best? I don't know like I REALLY need to know I tried my best. like MYYYY best.

like for example even though I studied so much harder than other people for my bio test, after the test I felt like &^&%%^$&%*^&$&%^$$##@@ because I didn't touch much on transport in plants which was pretty much the MAIN TOPIC that was tested.
It was only that topic really that made me fail that test so... uh.

I guess I gave people the impression after my olvl CL oral and LC that I don't really care? but I tried my best for those 2 already so I felt fine. Oral was okay seriously.

Ok grace stop kidding yourself. You know you are looking forward to that A for olvl chinese and if you don't get it you will take ten months to forgive yourself.

I'm really scared I can't get into a JC. Part of me tells me I need to study REALLY hard to get in but another part of me says getting in for me is easy peasy lemon squeezy.

Bible class today was on fasting....
tbh this was one of the only bible classes that I actually listened. A lot of times I just zone out because on sunday mornings I'm really tired. For some reason. I'm always tired on sundays -_-
I was never sure of why people fasted.

ok zzz z time to sleep. my plan to wake up and do work and failed very miserably. TSK I'm always doing this -_-
let me give you an example. of what I'm doing now

"Bio essay...... one question only do during maths lesson. Geog mindmap... do during recess. YAY!"

SEE SEE SEE SEE SEE WHAT I'M DOING. I know it's wrong but I comfort myself with the fact that hey, at least I'm doing my homework.

UGH cannot stand myself seriously.

Goodnight.

God bless your week! ♥

I'm going to start this "365 days of being nice and happy".
I could actually start by doing my homework you know. Not that it really has anything to do with being nice and happy but... nvm.

just maybe

2010-07-09T07:13:00.000-07:00

HIHIHI.
I'm so bored right now. Friday night yooo~

CCA just now was good? I made a lot of (hopefully not) empty promises though. about handing in my testwork.
I NEED TO HAND IN MY TESTWORK. So I can minus points off my Olvl L1R5 ):

I'm such a loner in school now zzz.
During recess I just sit at my place and... be lonely.
Do work :/ sleep.

My homework is REALLY piling up. Okay LOL it's not. I mean. My teachers gave me a pile of homework to complete over the weekend.

bye I'm going to do work.
uh. yeah.

키스미 데이~ 요

2010-07-07T09:21:00.000-07:00

I found my perfect grandmother cardigan!
It's 50 bucks though I'm not going to get it ):
D:
I found my perfect winter coat too, but uh yeah. Wrong weather.

WHY WHY WHY WHY *does kiseop's shoulders*

okay back to kiss me daeyee yo.

Woke up in the morning and went to churrrch.

They gave us this feedback form during bible study and GillianC and I started writing like crazy LOL.
Normally when I do surveys like that I just tick agree agree agree agree agree agree agree agree but gillian was honest LOL so I decided to be honest too!

If MOE gave me a feedback form...
I will write an essay for them.

I don't believe in self-study during holidays.
...don't get me started on a certain form teacher.

BACK TO KISS ME DAY.
It wasn't really kiss me day actually lol it was more like kiss-mes-who-spam-on-twitter-everyday gathering.

Went to harbourfront centre after church with sister and liqing and ate the lousiest $4.90 kimchi ramyun with beef.
walked around and... attempted to shop? Did we? Never mind.

We went to The Cocoa Trees and bought a thousand packs of M&Ms.

then Ben&Jerry's! actly... I don't think b&j's is that good. Besides the fact they have kind.of.unique? (but not as unique as baskin robbins) ice cream flavours. ANYWAY.

sorry for the gayness.

ant's heavenly pizza cheese thing that is NOT FIT FOR HUMAN CONSUMPTION.
the next time I step into the cocoa trees I will buy a thousand of this instead.

Met up with the other girls at Sq2 and went to eat Seoul Yummy!

Went to sit outside sakae to talk. again.
We talked from like... 7-10+? about U-KISS. my two bags of M&Ms vanished within the three hours ): but we had a good time! ♥

wheeeeeee meet you people again soon. but not on 18th July. I need to go for a wedding LOL.

and I NEED TO GO SHOPPING.

CITY PLAZA NOW NOWNOW NOWOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

I've been going out too much actly -.- /glares at U-KISS

WANTS.

2010-06-29T08:01:00.000-07:00

hi hi hi. this is a very random blog post because hahaahaha I'm bored.

School has been good (I think) but I need to get into the ~study mood~ like very soon :/ I keep telling myself "chey, SA1 is only 10%...."

Anyway! I realised I'm super introverted and fake in school ㅎㅎㅎ
so the only way you will really know me is through here. and tumblr. and twitter. and if you are close to me. lalala.

Shall start.

1. GRANDMOTHER CARDIGAN

LOL seriously I've been wanting a grandma cardigan since forever and ever and ever and ever but I never find the perfect one ): boo.

2. DIANA

What? It takes pretty pictures. & it's pretty too!!!! Actually, I want a good camera more than I want this, but since this is prettier.... (:

3. HAIR THAT GROWS

I'm doubting my hair actually grows. Srsly I don't think anyone in this world has hair that grows as slowly as MINE. grr.

4. PRETTY ROOM

I want a room with white white walls! with lots of space for me to put my rubbish up 8D
I'll probably uhm... get too lazy to do anything though :/

5. JEANS

I currently have this jeans fetish thing that is killing me, but jeans are not nice to wear in Singapore ):
and my legs are kind of.. thick so... you know.

6. MORE SHOES

(I know these aren't shoes)

LOL SERIOUSLY I CAN'T STAND MYSELF. sorry for the sudden burst of shoe porno. Actually, I haven't walked in a pair of heels in my whole life before *BIG GRIN*
My current shoe collection: loafers, loafers, loafers, loafers, sneakers, school shoes, a pair of sandals and slippers since I was 10. :/

7. EVERYTHING ELSE

I need to start loving school and loving other people. Need discipline to finish my testwork (D:) and homework and stuff. Need to spend more time with God. Need to do more -close eyes count to ten- moments. Need to be more selfless.

; sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet making many rich; having nothing, and yet possessing everything.

Ok....
this. is so contradicting *points up* look at how materialistic I am.

SLKDSDFKJHSDLFKJSHDLDSFJHLSKDJF;SKDH;FSKJDHF

290610

2010-06-28T08:30:00.000-07:00

DONGHO SHIN.
You are such an amazing person and this blog seems to be dedicated to you you you only but that's not supposed to be the case.
I love how you've grown up to be who you are now and how shy you used to be.
Thank you for all the joy you've brought me since 2008 together with the rest of the boys.

Nothing's gonna change my love for you,
you ought to know by now how much I love youuuuu~

heheehe so gay I know.

62405.

2010-06-26T21:08:00.000-07:00

"I love U-KISS but I really don't like Dongho. Yeah he's the maknae but his aegyo... god it's revolting. He's rude and disrespectful to his hyungs too... I don't hate. Hate is too strong a word." -anonymous

but I like you just the way you are Dongho Shin, because you aren't afraid to show your irritating self. I love your fail aegyo, the way you act pro when you sing, how you always ~fail~ in variety shows when they ask for you to show them a talent. I love how you are just weird like that.

When I first liked U-KISS, my favourite was this guy. *points down*

of course I thought U-KISS was going to be like the other boy bands:

then one fine day, I was looking through the U-KISS soompi thread, and this guy caught my attention. Of course, again I thought I wouldn't like him for long.

(there's a whole series of photos but i cut it hhaha here.)

I only liked dongho right before they came to Singapore in 2008.
When they came, I admit I was like a zombie (oops).
I was the only dongho fan in the big crowd there. I bought a pink rabbit for dongho at the airport tgt with sister

(on behalf of sister, ignore her fail spelling of al-lek-san-deo)

I don't know what made me so sure that even with the barricades I would be able to give my pink rabbit to dongho though. I remembered when 5 of them walked past I was like "omg.... T-T" but then I looked up and saw Alexander and just smacked (yes smacked T0T) the rabbit on his shoulder (I'm glad it was at least soft :/).

Basically, I was a zombie (if you know what I'm talking about LOL) in 2008, like any other fan now.

That was my very first... "interaction" with any star. I wasn't a hardcore fan or anything, I just liked dongho I guess.

When ukissmeSG was created, that was when I really became a fan.
Without ukissmeSG, I can't help but feel that I wouldn't be a U-KISS fan now. because of ukissmeSG, I have made so many good friends and memories, like our trip to Korea in December 2009 (7 months ago, but it feels like it was just a month ago)(photos here hehe)

All the odeng, banana milk (seoul milk that dongho is going to advertise for LOL), shin ramyun, onigiri for breakfast, onigiri for lunch, onigiri for teatime, onigiri while waiting for U-KISS, onigiri for supper, staying up till 4am just to make the welcome book for Kiseop, ant falling sick, crying during Inkigayo and fanmeeting, freezing outside in the cold just to see U-KISS, always getting cut off halfway when getting into fanmeeting or Inkigayo because we are not official Kiss Me, and our hearts going pit-a-pat ♥

and then after Not Young came bring it back 2 old school. This was when U-KISS lost SO many fans, but I love 나가좋아 and nothing's gonna change my love for it~.
Halfway through Dongho started to gain popularity, with

At that time I hated how he was becoming popular and how he was changing so much, from someone who used to feed milk to his toy dogs to someone who knew how to talk back to his hyungs, but over time I realised that dongho was like me.

Maybe through him I will learn, hopefully, to be less judgmental and stuff, because no one is perfect and I am far far far from perfect. Besides, he's a star and once he creates that image for himself, he's going to have to stick to it. He may seem rude and idiotic at times but I believe he must be pretty awesome if he is able to be so successful at this age.

"Believe me, things will be cuter hehe With that I will work hard to overcome my shyness heh" -dongho

You've done it dongho shin. Even though you're still awkward on stage while singing (cough cough EOtR cough) and you still slouch and bite your nails and 멍~ on stage, you're DEFINITELY no longer shy. Proud of you HAHA. (really!)

---

When MMHN was released last year, I wasn't very happy that U-KISS was becoming so popular and gaining so many fans (being the selfish me I am) but then after hearing that if MMHN wasn't successful all of you would be "at home eating tangerines",I was so happy that MMHN was successful. The only reason why U-KISS still exists ♥

Nothing much changed from MMHN>BGBG>MRG except for my growing love for U-KISS (OMG CHEESE).

This time they were in Singapore, though our stalking failed and our van wasn't really used for stalking but for our own transport purposes,it was when I realised how much I love U-KISS and how I am willing to protect them with everything I have. I don't remember hurting at all during the mess at the airport, I don't remember what it felt to have people squashing me all over the place, I don't remember what it felt like to have people hurling vulgarities at me. All I had in mind was to protect U-KISS because it's the least we can do.

I was so happy to see them go back to Korea because I don't want to see them hurt and I hope they don't ever step foot into this "Sunny Island" anymore.

I was SO touched my Kevin, Alexander, Kibum and Soohyun at the airport I don't know what to say. Despite the whole mess the fans created at the airport, despite all the fans touching and scratching and throwing gifts at their heads, they were still so thankful. Where else do you find such good people? They didn't mind when fans disrupted their shopping, they didn't mind when they had to practically crawl into the lift at the hotel, they didn't mind when zombies knocked on their doors at the hotel.

All the money and time I've spent on them and all the tears I've shed because of them have been worth it and I'm just going to continue loving U-KISS with all my heart each day ♥

Call me ridiculous, but the boys' bodies are just as important as my own. Whatever I can do to protect myself, I will do to protect U-KISS (obviously if they fall sick or something I can't carry them to the hospital in Korea or send them medicine la, but.... just being cheesy. ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ)

Anyway, back to my original topic of Dongho Shin,

I love you just the way you are, everyone has people who don't like them. Continue being the lovely brat you are who can pull off any look. Continue being the guy who's always in your own world and can't be bothered by fans, the guy who does practically z-e-r-o fan service, the guy who does selective fan service. Continue being the desperate teenager you are. Continue being the Dongho Shin that everybody knows.

......... out of cheese.

I shall end off with my favourite photo ever.

The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

We should be happy together. Forever, you and I~~~~~~ *scrunches up face, places hand at wrong place, lifts up one leg and bends down*

0247♥s you 62405!

♥

2010-06-24T09:52:00.000-07:00

(smallz due to lack of quality, orange and crying people)(and light in the middle of nowhere)

Anyway urpz I kinda forgot how to work my way around blogger.
Why has it changed so much T-T

200610-220610 ♥

2010-06-24T06:39:00.000-07:00

This is like the second time I'm writing a fan account cos it was so unbelievably memorable I can't even believe it myself. Anyway!

First day.

Went to the airport with Kuro at about 8.30. The boys were supposed to come out at 1020 but they only came out at 11+, so sister and co. could see them ^-^

Loaded the drinks into their bussss with the books!!!

Rushed out and called vanuncle alan and followed them to the hotel. Their curtains were down but it's ok hahahahaha. Got off at orchard hotel and they SO NICE especially alexander. The fans were super well-behaved on that day :/ like none of them tried touching the boys, at most they held out their hands to uh... try their luck. (they were lucky LOL)

Went to IMM after that and ate a bowl of laksa (my only proper meal in 3 days :/) Heard that the VVIP area was almost filled already so we rushed to the garden plaza. We didn't have shade cos we came too late hahaha but when they came out everyone rushed to the front so we got the shade LOL.

Most of us @ ukissmeSG stayed at the back while the rest tried getting to the front HAHA.

62405 kept looking at my legendary board. I was like ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
then while one of the members were talking he looked over and smiled, then I kind of like melted to the ground. Then he looked away (acc to sue) and when I stood up again he was like -glance-.

cr: xanderhyun@ukissmeSG

Made my day already.

Wrote on a piece of paper (in korean with help from sister) "in 2008 I gave you a pink rabbit at the airport. Do you remember? ♥, Grace"
Passed it to him on stage and he read it while signing, then when he finished he looked up and nodded.
LOL liar I bet he doesn't remember. Make me happy only right Dongho Shin.

The rest were SUPER nice like crazily nice. Eli melts everyone, cos before signing he uh... stares at you and smiles for like 3 seconds and it's super awkward LOL cos you don't know what to do during that 3 seconds.

I didn't shake his and dongho's hands but it's okayyyyy.
Kiseop was nice too haaha but nothing much, he just smiled, said hi, signed and shook hands. Kibum was HAHA.
Cos I didn't know what to say, then when he bent down to sign my album I was like ㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎ then while he was signing he heard me and went ㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎ then when he was DONE signing I went ㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎ THANK YOU! and he was like ㅎㅎㅎㅎ.
Best.

At alexander I had nothing to say T-T so I nudged sister and she leaned over and was like "Hi Alexander this is my sister!" then he went "OH REALLY?", turned to her and was like "HELLLLLLL-LOOOOOOO~" I just uhm, imitated his HELLO and moved to the next person HAHA.

At Kevin he said hi, I said hi, then he signed my album. When he was done I asked him if he liked the book then he was like "YESSSSSS I LOOOOOOOVE IT, HI-FIVE!!!" he's the best.

Soohyun was just plain crazy excited and jumpy and happy-looking yup. but I didn't say anything to him cos I didn't have anything to say to him :/ BUT I LOVE SEAN.

OK. hahahaha went to Mediacorp after that and waited.

The fans were really really loud and screamy. Like they screamed throughout the WHOLE song I could hardly hear a thing. I was worried they would scream so much and forget about the HEY but the didn't hahahah so it's fine I guess.
I think the reason why the screamed through the whole song is because whenever a different member starts singing, the scream, and by the time they finish screaming, another member is singing already, so they have to scream again.
*nods*

Went out after that and went back to their hotel, figured the wouldn't come out again and just went back home. HHAA. ant and her antics and aegyoness helped us get a ride all the way back to ang mo kio haahahaa best.

Super satisfying day.

OH OH OH OH OH while we were waiting for SSS to start I randomly said "I'm quite disappointed they didn't allow the boys to pick out from the audience who they wanted to play the game with (on the showcase day)" then ant was like "I HEARD YOUR NUMBER REALLYYYY!!!!!" but I refused to believe it, then liqing was like "I KNOW YOUR NUMBER CAME OUT!!! COS MINE IS 0246 AND I KNOW 0247 GOT CALLED. REALLY! YOU MUST TRUST ME!!!" then I went crazy for awhile.

Anyway yes.

Second day.

Left the house with all the snacks and drinks and stuff for the boys around 1030 and reached powerhouse at arnd 11. Didn't book any van for that day (:

Waited and waited and waited till I almost died. Then when they were moving the people closer to the entrance the queue got totally messed up but I think it was fine eventually? I don't know. About a million people asked me where they were supposed to stand I had no idea.

Then when the games people were gathering I went to ask lingfang if my number was called. She took like 5 minutes to check and my heart was like

KJSHKJSDHLFKSJHFLKDSJFHLSDJKHHIUWYRIU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!@#$%^&*()!!!!!!!!!!!

then when she said yes I was like O____________________________O;;;;;;;!!!!!!!......... heheheheh ♥_♥

Stood on the second level and watched them, then when lingfang came up to call the games people I was like "omg I can't believe this o_o" my legs were like jelly LOL.

Held hands with Aricia and went up the stage. She was super nice, cos at first she was standing opposite dongho, but she switched places with me so I was opposite him instead.

He held my arm and pulled me up stage I was like "urp *swallows saliva**jelly legs*"

Played uh... pictionary with them. My hand like refused to go up until the last three or four members. and THEN when I raised up my hand during kibum's turn I was like

"HEHHEHEHEHEHEHEHHHHHHHHH UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I DON'T KNOW XD XD XD"
dongho laughed and said something but I couldn't hear LOL.

It was tomato. I couldn't tell it was a tomato. Let me draw it out for you.

Seriously la Kibum Kim what was the star for LOL.and that mess on top there.

Anyway I managed to raise my hand up first arnd 2 times. Second time the emcee saw someone else though ); so he picked that girl. Dongho was uh.... fighting for me though. MAKE ME HAPPY YO.
During dongho's turn I raised my hand up like before the emcee said one two three LOL so embarrassing. then I realised and put my hand down then when the emcee finally said one two three I uh... forgot to raise my hand.
but 05 wanted me to answer. He didn't get his wish. I didn't get to answer ): ANYWAY HAHA.

dun dun dun dun...

The emcee thanked the fans and sent us off the stage, but all of us were like...... why no hug.
LOLOLOLOL. so we just stood there, then the boys walked forward and hugged us.

05 just immediately came and hugged I was like "T-T omg I love this boy :'D"

My face when I hugged him was like xD
... do I need to describe in detail?

cr: cordelia

After that I thought he was going to let go and let the other fans hug him but T-T no.

*points down* he put his arm around my shoulder and walked me to the end of stage. LOL AND he made me miss the group hug but it's okay i don't blame you dongho shin LOL. cos he didn't know either and went for the group hug late.

cr: cordelia

Went back and started sobbing during end of the road cos U-KISS were such angels I tell you.
and I was so so sos o proud to be a Kiss Me.

The people on twitter are killing me omg LOL.
I don't feel like typing anymore. ANYWAY!

Screamed happy birthday for alexander until my head almost fell off cos I was SO SCARED our celebration would fail. but it happened! whoooooo.

Said goodbye to ohmsin ): and went to eat ice kacang. Listened to 1003 after that. Sent in a few messages hahahaha but nvm.

Last day

Crazy day crazy day.

Went to the hotel at arnd 10am and slacked all the way till like 4pm LOL.

van uncle alan bought two chickens for us to eat xD he's super nice and he drives super well HAHAHA.

Our van became a gambling den (the other van uncles -.-) and a restaurant LOL.

I don't feel like talking already. OK ANYWAY.
then AlVin went to ion. and unlike what the other fans think, we knew that they were there. We weren't clueless, we just didn't want to disrupt their shopping. (B4 B4 B4 B4 HEHEHEHEHE)

Waited for a while after both of them came back and then followed them to dempsey to eat crab.
Took away quid youtiao thing and fried rice and ate in the van tgt with the other van uncles who were eating outside the van.

Didn't chase them to the airport after that. We just went there to form the human barricade.

Got screamed at for trying to form the barricade by fans who were there "since 1pm". Tried explaining to her but she got agitated and started screaming at us. Now that I think of it, seriously. She was screaming saying she would never hurt Soohyun because she loves him, but she tried passing letters to him. What on earth? Who was she trying to kid man.

Hypocrites I tell you.

We kept reminding those who helped form the barricade not to take pictures or give them presents, not to touch them anything, in the end there were people in the barricade taking pictures and passing them letters.

Was like screaming and crying towards the end because 1. It was totally out of control and the boys were being grabbed EVERYWHERE. 2. I was like being murdered 3. I felt like ham 4. I thought the barricade totally failed 5. the image that ukissme.SG tried so hard to create of Singapore for U-KISS was t.o.t.a.l.l.y.r.u.i.n.e.d.

All of us cried like crazy after that cos the barricade got totally broken, but after thinking about it, without us the boys would have been the ones falling down and getting hurt instead.
To those who hate us for forming the barricade, I don't know what to say but you are unbelievably selfish and unreasonable if you think the whole point of forming it was to get closer to the boys. That was the only time I felt so scared and worried to be so close to them. Our whole point was to make sure they would leave Singapore unharmed and happy. Think what you want.

Anyway I'm so glad they're back in Korea now. I don't ever want them to come back again. If they come again, it's going to be worse worse worse worse worse.

I LOVE YOU UKISSME.SG,
AND THOSE WHO TRULY WANTED TO PROTECT U-KISS FROM THE BOTTOM OF THEIR HEARTS (you're the Kiss Me who can treat them right ♥)